Mother Nature

|08|

I was a bit anxious about the situation. It was a bit scary that everybody were looking about me. They were doing researches about me. I had my tv always open because they might say something about me. For a reason I haven't seen anything about me the past few weeks. This was strange, but also good. So I calmed down finally, when someone called me.
- Hello?
- Hey, Rydel! I just wanted to ask you, are you okay?
- Yeah, why?
- I am watching the news right now with Peter and the only thing they talk about is you.
- What? But I watch a movie right now. In wich channel?
- In every channel, Rydel, in every fucking channel.
- But I don't see anything.
- That means that those people might told your address to all the channels and stopped the broadcast in your antenna.
- You have got to be kidding me right?
- No, Rydel, I am serious.
- Cindy, I am scared.
- Don't be scared, sweetie. Everything will be fine. This news was just really shocking for all the people.
- I know, but why is it so damn important?
- I don't know, Rydel I honestly don't. They are two opinions about your situation right now. Some people think that you are a scientist and you tried to be pregnant and you succeeded. Others think that the scientists, that made you, did something wrong and you born normally.
- They know nothing, that's why.
- We wish we could help you, but we can't. Sorry. We don't want to get in trouble.
- It's okay, don't risk your own life for me.
- Just stay in your house and don't go out.
- That's what I am doing.
- Cool, I am going to send you a couple of videos. They are interviews from people, who talk about you. Please see them and then delete them.
- Thank you.
- You are welcome, sorry I have to go now. I am gonna watch movies with Peter. We wish you could join in.
- That's okay, bye.
I was really sad. I couldn't even hang out with my friends, because of this situation. After a couple of minutes I received the videos from Cindy. In some of them they were those assholes. They said things that weren't true just for money. Th most of the parts of their interviews were full of lies. Then I saw something, that wasn't really good.
- Mr Johansson, do you have something new to tell us?...the reporter asked
- We might know why she was so scared about this photoshoot.
- Oh, tell us.
- In the beginning we thought that she might not be pregnant. We thought that maybe she wanted some attention, that she might not be pregnant for real. But she changed our minds. She really got attention at that bar we saw her. After she got attention she started running.
- We searched a bit and we found out everything from her doctor...the woman said
- Really? How did you find him?
- We found out from her boss that one day she fainted. So we asked him in which hospital did they get her and he said us where the hospital is. When we asked about her, other doctors told us that she goes really often there and they told us who is the doctor. He didn't want to tell us everything, but we gave him some money and he told us.
- What did he tell you?
- You'll find out soon. We are writing an article about it in our magazine "Girly". We are actually thinking to make a brand new magazine only for this case, but we aren't sure yet.
I was really disappointed. This doctor was my only hope. I hated him. He had betrayed me. He told everything to those assholes. I couldn't believe it. I started crying. After I saw all the videos I deleted them. They were plenty of people that gave an interview about my case. Governments knew everything for sure. After I saw those videos my belly started hurt again. It might was just a symptom, but it could be because I was scared. I really was scared. I was anxious about my future. I worried about my babies. I didn't want to disturb Lana, but I needed help. So I called her. She was the only person that could help me, although she was far away.
- Rydel, is that you?
- Yeah.
- Rydel, sorry I have seen everything but didn't had the time to call you.
- Oh, okay. We haven't talked for months, when are you coming back?
- Rydel, I won't come back. I really like a guy here and he asked me to move in his house. My brother will also stay here, because he is dating a girl. I am sorry.
- Why? Just why now? I need you, Lana. I can't do this on my own.
- I know it's hard, but you have Cindy and Peter.
- Yeah,yeah. If you were a real friend you would come here for me. I need you. I don't even have a doctor now. He betrayed me. How will I give birth? You can't just leave me alone. You promised me that you'll be here with me when this time come.
- Rydel, it's not my fault. If you were a real friend you would be happy for me and respect my decision. You can do it on your own. I am sorry.
- Yeah, okay, bye!...I said and hung up
I was really mad. She didn't even care about me anymore. I wanted to disappear from the world. I didn't know what to do. I was alone, again. Peter and Cindy seemed scared about this situation and didn't want to take part in this situation anymore. They blocked me on V and they blocked my number too. Everybody betrayed me. I couldn't even learn what was happening. I would give birth alone. I was in the dark. I was alone. Alone in the dark. I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself. I tried to calm down, but couldn't. I felt cursed. I was cursed.