Afire Love (#Wattys2016)

24. Chapter - I Love You, Too.

Chapter 24 – I Love You, Too.

I heard a loud and steady beeping that was slowly getting more evident the more I tried to ignore it. I had a slightly bitter taste in my mouth and my throat was dry making it hard for me to swallow. I was comfortable in the position I was laying and I felt like I was rested well. My body felt relaxed and my mind was calm. Was this heaven? Was this the place I hoped it to be? My eyes were still closed and I just didn't want to open them since I feared to see something else than what I wanted to see. My heart was beating a regular speed and I just stayed still enjoying the silence apart from the beeping. Suddenly something slightly squeaked and two voices were heard.

"He said she'd wake up soon. This was two days ago." The first voice said sounding worried and I recognized it. Jay?

"I know, but she's strong. She'll be okay soon." Another voice commented and I wanted to cry. This voice I did recognize as well and I never thought I would hear it speaking about me in such a positive way ever again. I wanted to open my eyes so badly but I knew that I wasn't ready yet. I had to be patient. "The police wanted to talk to you again, today." Nate said as if he had to remind Jay of this and I felt uneasy. The Police? What was he going to do there? "I'll stay here and tell you if something changes." He said in an honest voice.

"I won't leave her side." Jay insisted and my heart started clenching. "I thought I had lost her when I heard the voice mail." He said his voice shaking. "I won't leave her side." He repeated. I wanted to jump up and take him into my arms telling him I was sorry and that I only wanted to make his life easier by me not being a burden anymore. I didn't know if I could even step into Jay's view ever again after what I had done. I had tried to take my life not being able to stand all the pressure and the mental and physical abuse not thinking enough about what this would mean to Jay. He had lost our father and he went through a lot of pain for me and the only thing I was able to think about was how horrible my life was.

"I get you, but Jay I promise if anything changes I'm going to call you right away! And don't take me wrong, but if you go to the police you should take a shower first." He said carefully trying not to offend Jay.

"You are right." Jay sighted. "Amy and Ben are going to be back soon as well. Maybe if you tell her some positive thing she'll wake up faster. I read that online you know." He said sounding tired. I wanted to slap myself only now realizing how much pain I had caused to the people that meant most to me. I hope they wouldn't hate me after they realized how selfish I was. Suddenly I felt a light pressure against my cheek. "Please wake up soon. I need you back." Jayson whispered into my ear and If I could have I would have told him how sorry I was and that I loved him more than anything but I couldn't. I just couldn't move.

"I'm going to be back soon." Jay said before the squeaking was heard again and a door fell into its lock. I didn't hear a thing for a seemingly long time and I thought that Nate had gone out with him not being able to stand my stupid face. Suddenly I felt a hand brush against mine and Nate took my hand in his slightly stroking it with his thumb while sitting down on the side of the bed.

"Hey Kels', if you can hear me, please promise me to try and come back to us as fast as possible." He said quietly but I was bale to understand every word. "Jay literally went nuts after Amy called him and send him the voice mail. He hasn't recovered from the shock yet." He continued before making a slight pause. "Amy and Ben are worried sick about you, too. We have all been here every day since we brought you to the hospital." He explained and I wanted to cry. I was causing them even more pain than I ever wanted. "I miss you, Kels'." His voice was steady but sad and slightly angry as well. "I'm sorry for having been so mean to you at the park. I was hurt about you kissing Aiden. Still, this is no excuse for yelling at you. I knew you weren't stable mentally and I still couldn't contain my jealousy." He said and realization hit me. Nate's voice contained anger, but it wasn't directed at me. He was bad at himself, and it broke my heart. I was the reason he was giving himself the fault for what I had done. "I have a question." He said now slightly holding back. "It might be stupid since you can't answer me right now, if you even hear me that is. But I need to get this off my chest." He said sighting and giving my hand a slight kiss. "When I heard the voice mail you left I was worried sick and I still am, but the thing that stayed in my mind the most is the fact that you said... You loved me." He said before pausing for a moment. "I need to know if you meant it as in 'love you like a friends' or in.. A different way." I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to scream at the world. I wanted everyone to know that I loved Nate more than I could ever describe with words, but my mouth just wouldn't start moving. "Because, I do love you so much, that it hurts thinking about you. It hurts in a good and a bad way. The bad way is that I nearly lost you without having been able to tell you this, and this would seriously have killed me slowly and painfully. The other pain is when I think about your beautiful blue eyes and your gorgeous hair, your cute smile when you find something amusing and the way you furrow your brows when something makes no sense to you. This pain I wasn't able to place for a long time, but now I know exactly what it is." He said. My heart started beating faster and my mind started racing. What was he about to say? His sudden silence was killing me. "This hurt is deep and utter Love. It's clear and pure and it's the best feeling in the world. I don't care whatever happened with you and Aiden. I love you, and I feel that no matter what happens to us, I will always love you Kelsey." He said leaning in close and giving me a slight and gentle kiss on the mouth like he used to.

I didn't know what it was or how he had done it, but suddenly my lips moved in sync with him once again none of us thinking about what was happening just in this moment. I felt free and happy. A feeling I hadn't felt in a long time and I enjoyed it like it was the last time I was able to feel this kind of love.

Suddenly Nate broke the kiss.

"Kelsey?" He said shocked after realizing what just had happened. "You are awake." He said and took my face into his hands cupping my cheeks. Me eyes slowly fluttered open and I was blinded by bright lights my only shelter being Nate's face in front of mine.

"Hey." I said weekly and he laughed in a relieved way.

"I can't believe it! "He said shaking his head. "Come, I'll help you up." He said gently pulling me up to sit, which was hard for me to do on my own.

"Oh my god, Kelsey!" A female to me very well known voice screamed from the door. "You are awake!" Amy shouted before running over to me, taking me into a tight hug. It hurt slightly probably because of the bruises I still had all over my body but I didn't care.

"Hey." I said carefully.

"I'm going to go get the Doctor and call Jay." Nate announced looking at me with a bright smile and red eyes. "I missed you." He said before making his way out of the door.

"I was worried sick about you!" Amy said crying into my shoulder. "I thought I had lost you! You can't leave us Kels'. Promise me you won't ever do this again. I couldn't stand a world without you." She said still crying and hugging me tight.

"I'm so sorry." I said meaning every word starting to cry as well. Before I could go on telling her how sorry I was Dr. Moore and two nurses made their way into the room and I had to smile. What a coincidence.

"Miss Jackson. You can't imagine how glad we are to have you back." He said with honest worry in his voice. "How are you feeling?" He asked coming over to me. Amy stood up and went over to a chair that was standing next to the door, Nate stood beside her. Dr. Moore sat down and took out a little light holding it up to look into my eyes.

"I feel well rested but still tried, if that makes sense." I said truthfully.

"It does." He said scribbling something down on his notepad before handing it to a nurse. "We basically fed you the last three days you were asleep. You overdosed on sleeping pills and we will have to get you checked at the office for mental disorders." He said before laying his hand on my shoulder and looking me deep in my eyes. "We can help you out with everything and we will, but for now, please try to go back to sleep after taking some vitamins you'll get from Mrs. Louis." He said pointing at other nurse. "You will need some rest." He added before getting up and gesturing everyone to get out of the room. "She needs to rest he said looking at Nate who hadn't made a move to the door yet. Amy had obliged with Dr. Moore waving at me and mouthing me that she'd be back soon. "Mr. McMillan. Please." He said in a calm voice.

"I promised her brother to keep an eye on her. I'm not going anywhere." He said stubbornly which made my heart flutter and Dr. Moore just sighted.

"So be it." I said and turned to me again. "I'll come check on you in between." He said smiling and leaving the room with a last nod. Nate came back to me and sat down on the bed he had been sitting previously.

"I'm going to be here when you wake up." He said noticing my unease and I was gain reminded why I felt the way I did about Nate.

"Thank you." I said smiling at him before a yawn escaped my mouth. I laid back down turning to the side. Nate got the chair from next to the door and pulled it to stand next to my bed so that I could look at him. He slightly caressed my cheek before leaning back in his chair and smiling at me. I felt my eyelids flutter and the sleep taking over me. "Nate?" I asked.

"Yes?"

"I love you." I said sleepily and just before I was pulled in by sleep completely He responded.

"I love you, too."

In this moment, I knew everything was going to be okay.

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