Little nightmares from the past

Chapter 3: All the Truth

It hurt to think about Eryx. I had really liked him. After helping take care of his grandma, I just started to fall. His personality won me over instantly. He made me laugh, he would tell me how beautiful I was. Even though I had known I was far from it. I was fat everywhere, from head to toe. Natalia and Eryx had both constantly insisted that I was perfect the way I was. That I just needed to look harder.

Eryx made me feel like I wasn't this waste of space everyone else made me feel like. He was my first kiss, took me on my first date. Basically he was my first everything. The thing about guys like him is, they know the right things to say, the right things to do to make you feel special. When in reality you're just another tally to add to the score.

"Hey Mira, get back to work. Stop day dreaming the customers are getting annoyed." The manger snapped at me.

I walked quickly over to the first table. I took the orders, and did the same for the next four.

"Hello my name is Mira. What can I get for you today."

"Just let me talk to you. Please Mira let me explain. You never let me tell you what happened. Babe I promise I didn't have anything to do with what happened."

"We can't talk about this right now. I'm working." I said turning to walk away.

"Please Annamira. Just let me talk to you." He said his face drooping a little

"Fine I get off at nine. Come by my place after Ten. Don't waste my time Eryx or you'll never get any more of it."

The next 5 hours past slowly. And I was perfectly fine with that. I didn't want to see him yet alone talk to him. I hated looking at him, I just remember this stupid 17 year old boy I fell for. The memory hurts, not because of the picture but for the fact all the things he said to me were never true. All the late nights spent talking, all the drives we took. It was all just so he could get in my pants.

After work I drove home. Quickly taking a shower and putting my pajamas on. Shorts and black shirt, my hair in a messy bun and Zero makeup. I didn't care how I looked I just wanted to get this over with.

Soon enough he knocked at the door. Coming in before I even answered. Eryx followed me into the living room and sat down next to me.

"Mira, I want to tell you the real story. What you told Jake it's not the whole truth." He said looking into my eyes.

"Fine tell me lets go then."

"You remember Alexia? My girlfriend years ago."

"Yeah whys that matter." I said rolling my eyes.

"Well when she found out I cheated on her with you way more than once she wasn't happy. Truth was I didn't have feeling for her, never really did and she hated that. The night the picture was taken.." He paused before continuing. "I had been with you, she saw me fucking you. I guess she wanted to know if it was true. That I was actually having sex with you. When she saw us, that's when she took the picture, right after we had finished." He looked away from me.

"If that's true why never say anything to me. I fucking loved you Eryx and in an instant my life came crashing down around me. My life was a big fucking mistake and all of you just made it worse. Each day I came back to that awful place, I wished I could just die."

"Mira I would have never hurt you like that. You meant so much to me, baby I cared for you. Everyday I was with you I tried to make you smile cause your smile was my favorite thing. Everyday I reminded you how beautiful you were. Everyday I sat with you and tried to make you happy. I never laughed at you, I never called you names and I definitely didn't show the whole school you naked. I wanted only me to see that, to be able to see you like that. You never realized but I adored you Mira. I really fucking did."

I hadn't even realized I started crying till he moved his hand to wipe the stream of tears away. I cried harder, as he pulled me closer to him. Eryx wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into is lap, holding me as I cried. Part of me believed him, but part of me hates him for not making anyone stop.

"Mira.." Eryx said lifting my head up to look at him. "If I knew about it, You have to believe I would have made them stop. Princess, you were the only girl who actually got me to fall for them, and you had me fallen hard."

I pushed my face into his chest as a few more years spilled out. He held me tight to him.

"Eryx, did you mean everything you said to me back then."

"Like what babe?"

"Everything.." I said trailing off.

I tilled my head up so I could look at him. Look at the man I've wanted since I was fourteen.

"Yeah Annamira. I meant everything." He said with a half smile.

I pushed myself up smashing my lips to his. He instantly kissed me back, pulling me close to him. His tongue slid into my mouth moving in circles with mine. He moved his hand to my waist as he kissed me deeper. My hands tangled into his hair, before I quickly pulled away.

"Mira, are you okay?"

I search his face for something, anything. I don't know what I was looking for, but kissing him was not it. I slid off his lap and walked into my room,Eryx behind me.

"I'm not sleeping with you. If that's what you thought."

"I just wanted to say goodnight to you before leaving." He said walking over to my bed. He leaned down to kiss me.

I instantly pushed him away. "I'm not over this. Everything is not okay between us. I haven't even talked to you in years."

"Then why'd you kiss me Mira. We haven't talked because you wouldn't listen to anything I ever said you wouldn't even let me talk to you."

"I shouldn't have kissed you." I said looking down at the floor starting to cry again. "Just go."

"I'm not leaving you like this. I can't go knowing you're crying in your room. You know, you were my favorite person in the world. Talking to you was the best part of the day. Grandpa always made fun of me, cause everytime I came home from seeing you I'd talk about you all night. Grandma loved it, she really liked you. Said you'd be the best girl for me. Grandpa always said falling was a dangerous thing, always gotta make sure there's someone at the bottom to catch you." He said as he pushed my hair out of my face.

"I always thought you were full of shit Eryx." I said as a small smile spread across my face.