A Shot At Love

Chapter 18~ Finally getting the hang of it

Days have went by since Trey and I have had the talk in the hallway, and I begin to warm up on the idea of keeping us a secret. So far I haven't seen Trey flirt with any girls, which i'm quite happy about. Wayne has now became my go to man about our relationship, and Jailen has yet to know the full story. So as if now things are going pretty great. 

The only thing that has been getting to me is when Trey told  me not to give up on him. I can't help but wonder why he said that. He seemed so vulnerable. I want to ask him about it but I feel like maybe it's too soon, and that I should just wait for him to come around and tell me about it, if there's even something to tell me. 

I talked to him after school and before I left to "work", if I can even call it that, and he told me he's coming to eat lunch with me. I didn't protest or anything cause i didn't want him to feel as if I didn't want him around. 

The only thing is that I eat lunch with Nicole everyday, and I don't want to blow her off and eat with her ex-boyfriend, which would seem very suspicious. I mean she knows that over time Trey and I have developed a friendship, but she still doesn't know about our relationship, or that we've became pretty close. I guess i'll just have to deal with it when the time comes, which is now. 

"Autumn are you ready?" Nicole  says while she peeks her head inside my office door.

"Yep." I reply even though I know that i'm not. I grab my purse that has my bag a chips in it and walk out with Nicole. 

Trey is suppose to bring me my lunch and I have no clue how i'm going to explain this to her. but I should't be so scared, because friends are allowed to do favors for each other. 

Nicole and I take a seat at our usual picnic tables, and she pulls out her lunch and begins eating. She then pauses and looks at me confused. 

"Where's your lunch." She questions. 

"Um, Trey is actually bringing me some." I say calmly like it's no big deal. She seems a little surprised at first but then just nods her head. 

"Oh, ok." Nicole says quietly. "I'm kinda glad that he's coming, I need to talk to him."

"Do you want to get back together with him?" I question, trying to act natural when in reality my heart beat is picking up at every second. 

"Oh noooo," she drags out " quite the opposite really." As the words leave her mouth I feel a rush of relief take over me. 

"So you found someone else?" I guess. Though as she's about to answer, I hear my voice being called. 

We both turn our heads to see Trey walking towards us. He's wearing a different outfit then he did when he was in school. He has switched into some sweatpants, with a hoodie, and might I say he looks damn good. 

"Hey" Nicole and I say as he approaches the table. When he takes a seat, he then hands me my lunch. I thank him and begin opening my food. 

"So, did you guys hear about Brad from school?" Nicole ask, causing Trey and I to shake our heads no. "He supposedly gay as hell." 

"Really!?" I exclaim, "He doesn't seem like he'll be gay."

"I mean i'm not so surprised. He does always stare a lot in the boys locker room." Trey replies,  and that's how our lunch continue on, nothing but us talking about pointless drama. 

Well at least that is until Nicole decides to ruin our time.

"Okay, Trey I have something to tell you," She begins. "I've been seeing someone, and the reason i'm telling you this is because I didn't want you to hear it from someone else." 

I look over at Trey to see his facial expression, and it's very evident that he's trying not to  be angry. "So, who is it?" He questions in a strained voice. 

"It's Sean." She answers hesitantly, and by the look on Trey's face I can tell that there's a history between them and this 'Sean' guy. 

"Sean? As in Sean Hardly?" He exclaims, "I knew it was something going on between you two." 

"Trey it's not like that, we started getting close, and then it just kinda happen." She frantically explains.

"Kinda happen my ass. You two been had a thing going on and I know it." I begin to walk away until the next words out of Trey mouth causes me to stop i n my tracks. "But you know what, I don't even give a fuck, because i'm dating Autumn."

"Trey what the hell are you thinking?" I say pushing his shoulder. I then turn to Nicole and try to come up with some kind of way to explain to her, but all I do is stutter over my words. 

"So you two, are an item?" She says looking hurt, and betrayed. 

"Nicole look, I didn't want to tell you like this, i'm just, i'm sorry." 

"I can't believe you." she speaks, but her voice comes out really quiet, and i start to feel more guilty than I did  before. 

"What are you jealous? If you are you have no right to be, your're with Sean remember?" Trey finally speaks, but his voice comes out very cold, and I start to second guess why I started having feels towards him. "Just face the facts, I've moved on and you didn't. You just wanted to make it seem that way." Then he kisses me. 

The kiss is no where near like all the other ones's we've shared, it's harsh, and hard, which makes me roughly push him off of me. 

"What has gotten into you? Are you crazy?" When he doesn't reply and just continue to smirk, I shake my head at him in pity, and just walk away. 

"Where are you going?" I hear him question behind me, but I don't turn around and just continue to keep walking. 

"I have a job to attend to." I  call over my shoulder. With that I hear no more from him or Nicole, and I feel like I just want to curl up into a ball.