Girl Meets Senior Year

Next Steps

Maya stared blankly at her sketchbook. She had been looking at a blank page for going on an hour without making one pencil stroke.

"Are you ok?" asked Riley.

"Yea, fine, Riles."

"You're lying," she eyed her. "What's bothering you?"

Maya took a deep breath, "Riley, how far did you go with Lucas?"

Riley's eyes flew wide as she stared at Maya, "I don't want to talk about that."

"I want to know."

"It's not some sort of competition."

"I know that. But I feel like I need to know this."

"Maya, I really think..."

"Ring power," she said holding up her hand.

"It'll only hurt you."

"Tell me."

"He used his hands on me once."

"Ok," she said shakily. "Anything else?"

"And he saw me without a shirt...or bra on."

"Is that all, Riles?"

"That's all. I'm sorry, Peaches!"

"Why are you sorry? You were in a serious relationship. Of course you two did things," the word came out like it was toxic.

"But you waited for me. You were like a nun! You waited and were a nun. And I was like some kind of whore of Babylon!"

"Riley, you are so far from a whore of Babylon or any other kind of whore for that matter."

"You really aren't mad?"

"It hurts. But no of course I'm not mad. And you have nothing to feel bad about. I'm the one who wanted to know," she paused, "and now I know."

"And now you know."

Maya turned back to her sketchbook and forced herself to start drawing something, anything to convince Riley she was ok.

"Peaches?"

"Yea, Riles?" she asked without looking up.

"Why did you want to know?"

"Because I haven't done anything, and I was curious," Maya replied, still not looking at Riley.

"Are you asking because you want to do something?"

She closed her book and turned to face Riley, knowing the brunette was not going to let this go. "No," she saw Riley's hint of disappointment. "I mean yes, of course I want to. But I don't need to. And not right now obviously. I just meant no because it's not why I asked. But yes I want to. I want to do everything there is to do with you. But someday. When you're ready. And when I'm ready. I'm rambling now aren't I?"

"You're cute when you ramble."

"Thanks," she blushed and a small laugh escaped her lips.

"We can though, if you want to," Riley said in a hushed voice.

Maya's eyes snapped wide, "What?"

"This is still new, and I want to take it slow and savor each moment. But that doesn't mean we can't have new moments."

"Um. Uh," Maya struggled to find the words. "What...what did you have in mind?"

"You are so flustered."

"I'm a little shook."

Riley leaned in to kiss her girlfriend. Maya allowed her to take the lead as she had no idea where this was going.

She felt her hand being guided it up until it grazed the bottom of the Riley's shirt.

Riley removed her mouth from Maya's and trailed kisses down her neck. "It's ok. You can go under if you want to," she said between kisses. When she finished talking Maya felt her sucking on particularly sensitive spot on her collarbone.

"You. You're going. To leave. A mark. Honey," Maya said between shallow breaths.

"That's the point," Riley said before continuing at her task.

I can do this. Maya tucked her hand under Riley's shirt and lightly traced her fingers across her stomach. Riley let a soft moan giving Maya the courage she needed to go upwards until she reached the underwire of Riley's bra. Oh my god. I'm really going to do this. The second Maya'a hand came to rest upon Riley's breast she felt lips crashing back onto hers. Riley moaned into her mouth and soon she felt hands exploring under her own shirt as well.