I'm NoT cRaZy (Septiplier)

Chapter 33

Sean could not express the amount of shame and regret at that moment when Mark saw Chica, how Mark had panicked. Mark refused to talk to Sean, his anger was much greater than his love for Sean.

Sean sat in the back of the car with Chica, glancing over at the pain filled dog, who stared back at him in fear but he could see that she was in far more pain.

"Mark, I'm sorry" Sean said again, Mark barely glancing to look at him, his hands gripping the steering wheel so tightly his knuckles turned white.

This only made Mark more sure that he needed that medication, desperately, if he could not hold in his anger and beat his baby Chica, he would maybe think otherwise.

Being as stubborn as he was, Sean still denied the fact he needed the medication, he thought he had a brief  'episode ' and claimed to Mark that he was fine and that it was a one time thing.

Mark only began screaming at him, stating that Sean was fucking ballistic and that this was not a mere 'episode' and without his medication, this would happen again, if not he might end up killing someone or something.

"Mark... please, I'm so so sorry" Sean exclaimed, leaning forward, staring at Mark pleadingly. "You think saying sorry is going to change anything? I'm fucking furious Sean, saying 'sorry' is not going to change what you have done!" Mark said loudly, throwing a glare at Sean.

"But... I didn't mean it" Sean said in a small voice. "So? It happened!  You can't back yourself up on this Sean, you did it" He stated and Sean flinched at his loud tone.

"Sean, take those fucking pills right now" Mark said after a moment and Sean glared at him. "No! I don't want to!" Sean shook his head, crossing his arms high above his chest childishly.

"Sean... don't fucking make me stop this car and stuff them down your throat because you sure as hell know I will" Mark said seriously, Sean grumbled and shook his head stubbornly.

Mark hit the brakes, parking his car on the side of the road, climbing out the car, Sean's eyes widening when he realized Mark was seriously going to do it.

The door on Sean's side opened and Mark grabbed Sean's hoody, pulling him out the car and slamming the door shut, pinning him against the side of the car, pulling the pills from Sean's pocket.

"No! Mark! Cut it out! I don't want it!!" Sean screamed, shaking his head as Mark took out the three pills, holding it in front of Sean's face, staring sternly at him.

"Sean, behave and take the fucking pills before I lose it!" Mark snapped, Sean still screaming, shaking his head. Mark rolled his eyes and pressed his lips to Sean's, silencing his screams.

Sean immediately kissed him back, Mark kissing him slowly, adding his tongue to the kiss, Sean opening his mouth, Mark taking the opportunity, pulling away and quickly shoving the pills in Sean's mouth, closing his mouth so he couldn't spit them out.

He sighed and opened the door, grabbing the bottle of water in the car, opening Sean's mouth, pouring some water in, shutting it again before he could spit it out.

"Swallow" he said and Sean shut his eyes tightly, swallowing the water and pills, Mark letting his mouth go, closing the water and walking back to the drivers side, climbing in and shutting the door, having the urge to drive off without Sean, but he didn't.

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Sean sat in the waiting room of the vet, his head hung and his hands in his lap, waiting for Mark to come back after he took Chica to get checked on.

He was still surprised when Mark forced him to take his pills, he hated the taste of them but couldn't deny, he felt much better than before, he felt more in control.

"Here is an update on the case concerning Sean McLoughlin, the authorities have lost him completely and it seems as though he had vanished or died, but they are still keeping an eye out for this demented maniac, but if he is found, serious consequences are to be obtained for the murders and crimes he has committed-" Sean switched off the television, glaring at it.

"What a wacko huh?" The lady behind the counter sighed, looking down at her file. Sean lowered his head, slowly walking to the chair he was sitting, sinking in the uncomfortable, plastic seat.

"I'm... Juliet, I know, I'm named after the girl in that Shakespeare play, very funny" She sighed and Sean barely looked up at her, nodding briefly. "Jack" he said, shifting in his seat.

"What do you think of him?" She asked and he looked up slightly, tipping his hat over his eyes. "Who? Sean?"

"Yeah" she leaned on the counter. "I feel like people judge too fast" he shrugged and she chuckled. "He's been to several institutions, he's a maniac" she claimed and he scoffed.

"But, you don't know what he's been through? How can you judge him if you don't know his story? Imagine how you'd feel if you were in his position? Maybe he's just scared and doesn't know what else to do?" Sean said, glaring at the ground.

"Huh, I never thought of it like that..."

"You should probably think before you judge" he looked up at her, her eyes widen in realisation when their eyes met. "Uh, um" she reached for the phone and he sighed.

"Look, I was in that institution with Rodney, he refused to pay for medication to help me, he beat me physically and I only got worse. Until... until this man came, he was the guard for me at night, he watched me rage, cry and everything, he accepted me, I've never felt like that, I was only like that because I hardly ever had that feeling of compassion, so you go on, call the police and take me away from someone I love, be taken to a place that will only leave me to isolation and insanity" he leaned back in his seat, his arms crossed.

The door opened and Mark came out, carrying Chica who had a cone around her neck and bandages around some parts of her shaved fur, Sean lowered his gaze sadly.

"Come on Sean" Mark said softly, Juliet watched Sean and looked to Mark before she sat back done, smiling kindly to him, giving him a small nod.

She smiled thankfully to her and stood, following after his angry lover.

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"She's scared of me" Sean said sadly, looking to Chica from where he sat, reaching hand to her, her head looking away from him. "Does that surprise you?" Mark asked bluntly, sitting beside Sean, playing on his phone.

"What... whatcha doing?" Sean said, the tension between them made him feel nervous. "Nothing Sean, it doesn't matter" Mark grumbled, Sean biting his lip and frowning as he looked at his hands.

"Do you hate me?" Sean asked, not looking up at him. "No Sean, I could never hate you" He huffed and Sean looked up at him. "Are you still angry?" Sean inched closer to him.

"No, I'm just.... annoyed" He breathed, switching off his phone and looking over at Sean, staring into his eyes. "So... so you still love me?" Sean rested his chin on Mark's shoulder, staring at him with an innocent gaze.

"Sean, baby, I always will love you" Mark exclaimed, looking away.

"You love me from the earth to the moon?" He whispered into Mark's ear which sent shivers down his spine. "Baby, I'd love you from the earth to the moon and back" Mark stated, looking back into Sean's eyes.

Sean smiled, leaning closer to Mark, softly kissing his nose, then his cheek, then he kissed his lips, Mark softly kissing back, closing his eyes slowly.

Sean cupped Mark's cheeks with his hands as they kissed in synchronization, the feeling he loved so much, the feeling he just couldn't get over no matter how many times it happened.

Mark wrapped his arms around Sean, pulling him on his lap, kissing him lovingly, giving Sean the chance to show how much he loved him.

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