I'm NoT cRaZy (Septiplier)

Loving a freak like you

No one could ever love a freak like you...

Those words stuck with Sean through these 13 years. He looked over at Mark curiously. He was making himself something to eat, humming to himself. No one could ever love a freak like you...

But... Why would Mark love me? He's said it to me multiple times... He's still here right? He said he loves me even after I threaten to stab him and I said it back. Perhaps he's scared of me? Maybe he said it hoping to calm me down...

That thought made Sean want to throw a fit, angry that he'd doubt Mark's words but also angry at the possibility of it being true. So instead, involuntary tears welled up behind the lids of his eyes and they fell down his cheeks. He hastily wiped them away but when he brushed one another seemed to take it's place. He turned his back to Mark, hoping to hide his weak frame from this man. He always got mocked for being weak.

Fight! Fight! Fight! Gay cunt! Bipolar freak!

Stop it...

Did you forget? No one could ever love a freak like you! You're pathetic!

Perhaps he was.

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"Listen Sean-"

"Jack", he interrupted the older male. "I-I'd like to be called Jack", he twiddled his thumbs and lowered his head. "Very well, Jack, I'm not going to suspend you this time, since this is already the third time you've been sent here from fights-"

"That I never start!" He stated hastily, his eyes wide and wild. "Regardless of who's the culprit of starting these quarrels, you were a part of them, now I'm giving you one last chance before I have no choice but to expel you from our school", he slipped on his glasses which reminded Sean of Harry Potter. "Do I make myself clear?"

"Aye", Sean grumbled, standing and nodding to the Principle, exiting his office and waddling his way to the classroom. He didn't dare to look up to meet anyone's stare. It was bad this time, because usually when these fights happened, Sean would plainly punch the fucker and still gets in trouble, but this time, Brock, the boy, wasn't at school the next day. He heard snickers and whispers behind hands as he passed, but this was nothing different from the usual.

"Hey Jack", Cody, one of the few people who didn't regard Sean a complete freak show, greeted him. "Hi", Sean opened his locker and pulled out his books and shut the lockers door, walking into the class with Cody following. "You okay man? Yesterday was pretty rough", Cody patted his shoulder and Sean, flinched at his touch.

"I'm still alive", Jack glanced at him as he sat in his seat.

"Thank god for that", Cody dragged a chair closer to sit beside Jack. "Dude your hands", Cody's eyes widen at the sight of Sean's bandaged knuckles, most likely from the brawl. "I'll live", Jack shrugged one shoulder, suddenly his emotions switching as his vision turned blurry, looking to Cody with a teary gaze.

"Woah, hey, are you alright?" Cody placed a hand on his shoulder as Sean started trembling and whimpering. "I j-just want to be normal... I-I never a-asked for this!" He covered his face with his hands as he sobbed. "Dude, it's not your fault!" Cody was overwhelmed because just seconds ago, Sean was totally fine.

"Why me?" Sean demanded not to anyone in particular. "No one could like a fucking freak show like me!" Sean suddenly became enraged and slammed his fist into the desk, angry tears streaming down his cheeks. "Calm down dude! I-I like you! I think you're cool", Cody tried to calm him down, noticing he was attracting unwanted attention.

"Don't lie to me!" He sneered and Cody blinked, growing flustered.

"I-I'm not! Please just calm down!"

"I'm am fucking calm! Fuck you!" Sean abruptly stood, so suddenly that he sent his chair flying back onto the ground. "Dude, you need to sit down and relax, you're acting crazy!" Cody stood slowly, instantly regretting his words when he saw Sean become more enraged.

"Crazy! Me? Fucking crazy! I'm not crazy! You're crazy!" Sean flipped his desk and stepped up to Cody, his usually small and delicate figure now towering over Cody. "Stop it! You're scaring me!' Cody backed up and Sean suddenly pouted sadly and broke down hysterically, dropping to his knees and sobbing.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so so sorry!"

'What's going on?'

'Wow, he's out of it'.

'He's really cracked this time'.

'You've gotta feel bad for him...'

'What a freak'.

'He should take meds'.

"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" Sean pulled at his hair and screamed loudly, people staring at him in confusion. "Sean, are you-"

"Shut the fuck up!" Sean stood and threw a punch at Cody, knocking him hard enough that he hit the far wall, his nose instantly bleeding. "I'm not fucking crazy! You're all crazy! You all piss me off! No one understands! No one will ever understand the freak! Freak freak freak! I'm sorry for not being 'normal'! Mother fuckers!" he grabbed a pair of scissors from the teachers desk and swung the at Cody, hitting him in the gut.

Panic. Panic. Panic. Children started to scream and teachers shied away in fear, Mr Burke taking action and calling police and security desperately, trying to find ways to sedate the wild boy. "Fuck you all!" Sean screeched as he repeated the process of stabbing this boy who used to be friendly to him.

Why did he have to crack now? Why Cody? Cody was his friend. Sean didn't seem to be a great friend. He didn't mean for it to be like this, he didn't mean to freak out like this. Cody was just being nice. Maybe he was crazy. Everyone was scared of him. Nobody would like him for sure. Damn, he was going to get expelled for this.

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