Us Aganist Ourselves

Chapter 7

4 years and 2 months ago

There are no words to explain how hard those months were... I don't know how I made it. Even now, it still pains me to think about that day 4 years ago. I know that if given the chance I would give my life in a heart beat if it meant my child could have her life. The tattoo on me lower back reminds me of my Wynter Grey.

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The time after Wynter was killed passed slowly and painfully. The first few weeks I barely left the nursery, I kept expecting Wynter to just appear in her crib and smile at me.

I couldn't believe that my child wouldn't get the chance to grow up... to go to school, to fall in love, to meet her Dad. I was buried by the pain, anger, guilt and the absolute loss. I was beyond pissed off until the bastard was put in jail.

Everytime I looked around I cried, I hated life, I hated everything including myself. Maybe if I secured her tighter? What if we hadn't gone to see Dad that day? What if we left earlier? The what if's and the possiblities threatened to kill me.

For the a while I refused to talk, or eat, or socialize... William wasn't much better in the beginning but he kept trying to get me out of my depression but it wasn't working. Once they got me out of the nursery I started working out again.

I was constantly training, boxing, running all of it in some effort to get stronger. It wasn't until I got a phone call in Septemeber that I had to snap out of it.

"Azura, I know you're going through a lot but we need you're help." Val had called me in a panic. I was immediately on alert.

"What's going on?" I ask, my posture immediatly straigthening, Will who is in the kitchen looks shocked to hear my voice.

"It's Scarlett, she told Lani last night that she was going to bed early and she hasn't shown up at her classes, she of course went to investigate and found her door picked and the window broken and Scarlett gone. Azura, she's been kidnapped." Val explains. I make my way to my room and start throwing some gear together.

"Valen Carter, listen to me, and listen very well. I will have people swarming there in the next five minutes, in those five minutes I need any and all of you're recent assesment of the hit and any one who would have a reason to take her. I'm leaving now so I will be there in the next couple of hours. Have Dex start tracing her phone, I'll do the same. DO you understand me Carter?" I order.

"Yes ma'am." She states and I hang up.

I quickly call the private airport and have them set everything up for the next thirty minutes. I call my contacts and have them heading to Valen's location. I walk out into the living room while still on the phone barking out orders in Russian.

I close the phone and curse softly, switching languages easily as I start tracing Scarlett's phone.

"What the hell is going on?" Will demands. I look up to he looks worried.

"There's an emergency that I need to deal with. " I state coldly as I go to walk out the door. He grabs me.

"Azure, you can't seriously expect me to let you leave right now?" He says incredulously.

"William, let me go, I need you to take care of some things here before I let you get anywhere near where I'm going." He looks curious.

"What do you need me to do?" He asks.

"I'll call you when I get where I'm going, I'll fill you in on what you need to do from there." I deadpann. He nods reluctantly. "I'll see you soon," I say before I walk out. I immediately shake my head and turn back around and throw my arms around his neck. "Stay safe." I whisper and I walk away.