Me and the boys (Ashton Irwin Fan Fiction)

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I sit on my bed as the door opens a bit.

"Can I come in?" he asks. I don't know why but I nod. He comes over to me and sits down on my bed. My head leans on the wall behind me and I stare at the celling.

"What's wrong love?" he asks carefully and touches my arm. I relax a bit under his touch but than it jumps in my head again. He used me. That's everything I can think of if I want to trust him.

"I have a boyfriend Ashton" I whisper and close my eyes. His hand disappears from my arm and I feel him stand up.

I open my eyes and look him in his eyes. His eyebrows are furred and he looks angry.

"You haven't told me you have a boyfriend. I thought there is something special between us and now you just punch me all the time your fucking sentence ' I have a boyfriend Ashton' in my face and let me back down stairs alone without any explanation. One time you're the sweet and lovely girl to me but in the next time you're so cold and fucked up . You made me fall for you in Sydney but you knew you have boyfriend back home in London and you lied to me. I would never ever let you in my life. Why the fuck am I standing here?! you're a huge mistake. We weren't even together but ever talk to you was a mistake. I wish I've never met you" He yelled.

My eyes are still closed and a few tears rolled down my cheek. I just hear the door shut. Why was he saying that ?he used me. He hurt me. But i want to forget that and forgive him. I want to tell him the truth. I want to tell him what Chris does to me. I just want to be Frieda with him again.

I should talk to him.

I stand up and knock on his door. No answer. " Ashton can we talk please... Ashton?" I open the door but the room is empty. I run down stairs and around the house. " Ashton were are you?" I scream. I give up and slide down the wall. I sit there hugging my legs and continue crying.

After hours sitting on the ground and crying. I hear a knock on the door. I walk to it and let out a " who's there" but my voice cracks. "It's Louis"

"I'm not home" I answer in hope he would leave. I don't want to talk and I don't want to see anyone.

"Haha You're so funny Sam but please can you open the door?" he chuckles a bit.

"I said I'm not home" my whiny voice cracks again.

"Sam? whats wrong please I can hear something is wrong. Open the door. Now" he said seriously. I'm getting a bit scared of his tone and open the door. In front of me stays a worried looking Louis with a huge teddy bear in his arms.

He comes in let the teddy bear down on the floor in the hallway and pulls me into a massive hug. I hug back and sob in his chest.

"Shhh every thing will be alright sweetie" he whispers and kisses my forehead. After a few minutes standing there and hugging he lifts my head with his fingers.

"Want to talk about?" he whispers.

"No" I crack out and he pulls me back in his arms.

"Ok but please stop crying. It hurts me to see you like this. " He kisses my head and we both walk I to my bedroom and watch some TV. His arms are around my shoulder and I half hug the big teddy bear he brought me and half his body. Maybe I should tell him about Chris. He won't find it out will he. I'm sure Louis could keep this secret.

"Louis?" I said quietly.

"Yes?" he looks down at me with a small smile on his lips.

"I want to talk about it"

"Oh really? are you sure? I mean I'm happy you gonna tell me what's going on and I think I speak to much" he said the last part quiet. I giggle a bit by his reaction but am serious again. I lay my head on his chest again and hug the teddy bear. I take a deep breath and after a few seconds of silence I start.

"So There's a boy. I don't like him and I have to be/play his girlfriend because I wanted to protect you and the other boys. He said if I don't be his girlfriend he'll hurt my friends and my family so I said yes. I had no choice. I have to tell his friends how much I love him and I have to kiss him. And... and .... and..." I stopped. I don't want to look Louis in the eyes.

"And what?" he whispers. This were the only word he said.

"And... and ... he ... rapped me" I whisper. I'm not sure if he hears it but as he jumps out of my bed I know he has. I stand up as well.

"HE WHAT?! WHO IS IT?" he freaks out.

"Pleas sit back down. I can't change it and I won't tell you who he is and please keep it as our little secret. I shouldn't have told you. He'll hurt you or the others" I break down and everything went black.