Double Sided ( Dan Howell X Reader )

Chapter 6

You woke up to your annoying, screeching alarm. You get out of bed cautiously, trying not to wake your parents. They would kill you if you woke them up! Your got about mid-hallways and stopped in your tracks. You remembered, you live alone now! You weren't good enough once again. Even for you parents!

You go to the bathroom and brush your teeth and hair. You then clean your new helix piercing, wincing at the pain.

You then go to your room and get dressed. You wear your new long-sleeved school shirt. The sleeves were longer than usual, meant to be bunched up at the ends. Of course, that's not what you were using it for. You also wear your new white converse high tops.

You've made up with Logan kind of. Well, you had but he still gets very mad. And abusive. You go to catch the bus, forgetting to eat, but not caring. Your too fat anyway. You sit down next to Logan and his friends, which all either hated you and the fact that you always sat with them, or thought that you and Logan were dating again.

There had been a burst of new students at school, of which you had made a few new friends somehow. One of them, Katelyn, had sat next to you as well. You began awkwardly talking about the dance, her begging you to go, until Dan walks in the bus. You apologize to katelyn, and get up, getting a smirk from katelyn, and an evil, satan-like, death glare from Logan. Katelyn knew you liked Dan. However, so did Logan.

You sat next to Dan and talked until you got to school. Once you got to school, it ss just like any normal day. Once you got home though, it was one of the worst days you've ever had.

You texted holly, Elizabeth, Shelby, and Logan. The reason you didn't text Dan is that you couldn't risk loosing him. The others, they already hated you.

You texted them and told them to come over. Today was the day. The day that you told them about your depression. You would've also called Allison but she would've over reacted.

They came over, and you told them to sit down. They did and, regretfully, you told them everything. And by everything, you mean everything. The self harming, the crying, the self hatred, everything. After that, they looked at you like you killed someone. Like you had like killed all of their pets and family.

"So, what your telling us is that your crazy?" Logan asked.

"Sick in the head." Lizzie added

"Come on guys, let's get out of here before this nut job kills us or something." Shelby and holly said.

You knew you shouldn't have told them. At least you didn't tell Dan.

That night, is when it all started again. The cutting, the suicide attempts, the crying spells. You hated your life. You wish you had killed yourself.

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Sorry for the semi- short chapter. I had inspiration bc of stuff that's happening in my life. But then I remembered this is a Dan x reader, not a guy from school x reader. So that kinda ruined my inspiration a little....

- Abby