Trapped In My Thoughts...

fire on paper

That fire in her eyes, is like the fire that I write

The emotions that she hides are like the ones that fight,

Everybody sees the look on my face when she in my line of sight

But I wouldn't be the person that I am if she didn't make it alright

And it's funny how my past destroys the sanity I make

And the anxiety inside leaves me here to break

And the insomnia I struggle with leaves me lying awake

And yet she's there to hold my hand and talk and until I pass out

From the poison that I drank down, oh wait those were my thoughts

My life has been a tug of war between happiness and hate

Its the anger that fills me up inside,

Right up to the top

And the depression that eats my mind, and causes me to drop

To the bottom of the pit,

That I just dug myself out of

But she's the one to keep me swimming

When all I feel is drowning

Its the love that I hold on to

Like rope tied to the anchor

Its stops me from drifting

Off into the abyss

The one that she found me on

And without her I'd still be the broken toy that nobody wanted

I call myself her lost boy

But she's the one that found me

All happiness and love that she surrounds me with

Everything about her,

Especially that smile

Its the fire in her eyes, like the words that write

And I know that if she is here that I'll be alright

Its the passion that we share

And the kisses and laughs

She is the only thing that ever helped me get through my past

Its the emotions that she hides, like the ones that I fight,

Against the odds, Against the waves

I'm not drowning tonight,

I know that I can make it through this brutal fucking fight

Cuz I found my way to neverland with her by my side

I just want to remind when I tell you these things

That I love you with everything, with all of me,

And I can't wait to see what adventures we find next

Cuz I could never replace you with someone better, when I already found the best.