Don't Walk Away

Chapter 18

It's been five months since this whole public relationship stunt with Ayden and I started. It's September and I've finished school, finally.

Zach and I have started seeing each other under the radar. Of course there have been more rumours than I can count about me cheating on Ayden with Zach, but we've cleared them.

I've only gone back home three times since spring break back in April. Sadey got married and Ayden was my date to the wedding; sure to get lots of pictures there.

Ayden knows that I'm seeing Zach and surprisingly he's somewhat okay with it. He's learned to deal with it, I guess. He's told me many times, won't let me forget it, that he loves me. I can't help but feel bad when he tells me that because I'm going out with someone who used to be his best friend.

Ayden and I only dated for about two months before all that shit went down and we had to start faking our relationship.

I can say that this public relationship stunt has brought in a lot of publicity for me, good and bad. Nathan and I have gained so many subscribers, but also lost some. Nathan and I try to make videos as much as we can, but we've had to just make our own videos solo.

I can't say that I love Ayden, because I don't, but I do still have feelings for him. I mean, it's hard not to when you're publicly dating. Everyone else believes it, you start to believe it yourself sometimes.

This relationship hasn't been all good though. It has its ups and downs just like every other relationship. Sometimes there are just too many downs for me to handle all at once. I feel as if it's just too much for me.

I've almost broken up with Ayden many times, but didn't actually follow through with it. I've told him that I wanted to "break up" with him, and he just gets sad then says I can't.

I don't know what to do anymore. I've been in this relationship for so long that I've been accustomed to how it works that I'm just used to it.

It's hard. I've been trying to find the right time to "break up" with Ayden while we're out and I've figured out the perfect moment.

Tonight, Ayden has a concert in London and is bringing me. Before the concert starts, that's when I'll do it.

I've straightened my hair and put on a black high-low skirt, tucked in a white tank top and threw on a cream coloured cardigan. I slip on my black Vans and I'm ready to go.

"Is Ayden picking you up right now?" Carter asks me from the kitchen. Carter knows that Ayden and I aren't actually dating. Carter has let his hair grow out so it's pretty long and I have to say that it looks pretty good on him. Same with Ayden, his hair has gotten pretty long, but he just keeps it back with those stupid bandanas.

"Yeah, he should be here any minute." I reply back to him. I really hope they're not picking me up in that stupid limo of theirs.

I hear a honk coming from outside and I walk out. They're in a black van, because that's totally better than a limo.

I hop in and sit in the middle next to Ayden.

"You look beautiful." Ayden tries to lean over and kiss me, but I back away.

"They know we're not dating. We don't need to convince them that we are." I say to him, referring to the other boys who are in the car with us.

"I can't kiss my girlfriend?" he asks with a sad expression on his face. I roll my eyes before answering him.

"You can when we get there." I reply, a little too rudely.

The drive to London is short. By the time we get to the stadium, it's packed. Screaming girls everywhere. We get out of the car and security is immediately surrounding us, them being surrounded by the girls.