CLOSE (Josh Dun x Reader) ✧ idkbrooklyn (#Wattys2017)

eighteen

-Your P.O.V-

"They want to pull the plug on dad." Victoria finishes, her eyes filling up with tears.

My eyes widen as I hear Victoria finish her sentence.

"They...They want to..."

What?

I don't get it.

"W-Why?" I ask, tilting my head.

"They said they just can't wait for him to wake up anymore. They've lost hope." She sniffs in response.

I sit down.

Hm.

I..I don't know how to feel about this.

Part of me is sad, of course. I mean he is my dad. But the other part of me is wondering why I should care.

He abandoned my mom. Also, me.

For reasons I'll never know.

This obviously meant more to Victoria then it did to me.

I engulf Victoria in a hug as she cries into my shoulder.

"I'm sorry, Victoria. This is...just awful." I say as I rub her back.

"T-Thanks for your concern, (Y/N)." She hugs me back.

After about a minute, she pulls away from our hug and wipes her eyes.

"Uh...you don't seem...upset?" Victoria asks as her face turns confused.

I become worried.

I mean, it's not like I can tell Victoria I don't care.

"I-I don't blame you if you're not (Y/N)-"

"No, no. I-I am upset it's just that.."

I try to think of something I can say to make this situation better.

"You would've been more upset if you were still connected with him."

I nod my head.

"Yeah...I guess so."

-Time Skip-

It's been 2 weeks since my dad passed away.

I never told him goodbye.

I didn't even go to his funeral.

Victoria asked if I wanted to go but said she would understand if I didn't want to.

I turned her down.

Too much is going on right now for me to be upset.

I couldn't go to his funeral.

I know I'd feel too much.

Interrupting me from my thoughts, Victoria enters the tour bus.

"Hey." She greets me.

"Hey.." I respond.

"I-uh..."

I look up at Victoria. Her gaze avoiding mine.

"Here." Victoria hands me a sealed envelope with my name written on it.

I take the note.

"What's this?" I ask.

Victoria takes a deep breath before speaking.

"It's from dad."

I look at the note.

Dad?

"I know-um, I know you guys didn't have the chance to talk ever since we-uh, we left. But...he-uh, he always wanted to get back in touch with you, (Y/N). He wrote this like...8 years ago, I think. He just never sent it. I guess he was just...nervous?" Victoria shrugs.

I sit in silence for a few seconds, pondering of what to say.

(A/N: *waits for all the comments referencing car radio*)

I breathe in.

"..Thanks." I nod my head, placing the note down before returning to my writing.

I'll read it later.

A/N: Sorry there wasn't any Josh in this episode! There will be in the next one :-) ALSO CAN I JUST SAY PROPS TO ME FOR UPDATING TWICE IN TWO DAYS YAY ALSOOOO THANK U SO SO MUCH FOR 8K READS ILYSM <3 STAY ALIVE MY FRENS |-/ -b