Sorry, Corporal (Levi x Reader)

Epilogue

{{Here it is! Here's the epilogue you might've been waiting for x) Enjoy!}}

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Shortly after your death, a memorial was held for you.

Levi wasn't dealing well with you gone; in fact, no one was.

You were .. Skilled, and confident. But kind-hearted, and strong.

Levi's pov

'She's really gone...' I watch as she's buried 6 feet underground.

'Why can't I just wake up to find her next to me..' I close my eyes and hang my head, staying close to the back, behind a wailing Hanji and a gloomy Erwin.

'Please come back to me...' No matter how much I wished, I knew nothing would work, I knew she wouldn't come back to me. But one thing I didn't know.. Was it me that drove her to this? To suicide?

I feel hot, salty tears stream down my face as I let out a small whimper.

'I... I'm.. I'm sorry..' I open my eyes to see Hanji turning around and wrapping her arms around me, sobbing into my shoulder. Normally I would've pushed her away, but right now I just couldn't.. Her warm embrace was comforting, and I needed it right now, even if I tried to deny it. I hug her back, letting out quiet whimpers from time to time.

We eventually pull away and Hanji returns to her spot next to Erwin still crying, although a little quieter now. I look over to see Eren and Jean in tears, Sasha wailing, much like Hanji, and Armin hanging his head, tears spilling. They must've been her closest friends.

The plan to catch Annie out was postponed a few weeks due to (f/n)'s death, as a: she was supposed to be the one to talk to her, but b: to give people time to grieve about her before more lives are possibly lost.

I felt like I'd failed my duty, that I'd broken a promise.. Yet I didn't make one. Although I did like to think my duty was to protect her with everything I have, including my own life. But I didn't, and I couldn't.

I could only hope it wasn't my fault she... that she.. that she was dead.

I feel a hand on my shoulder, waking me from my thoughts.

"Come on, it's time to go back.." I hear Erwin say, a tone of sadness in his voice. I nod and walk ahead, jumping into the carriage. I sit with my head back as I try to contain my sadness, my tears, but they always find a way out, and always will.

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"I know this isn't.." Eyebrows sighs. "We need to be thinking about Annie soon.. We're running out of time. Who knows when we'll get attacked again? Hell, it could be from the inside this time too. Start thinking.. We need you." I nod vaguely and close my door, trudging into my room. I collapse on the bed and kick off my shoes, more tears leaking and more whimpers escaping.

'I really do kill everyone I love.'

I clutch my pillows and smell them, her smell still lingering. The sudden urge not to wash that one pillow became strong, in hope to keep (f/n)'s scent there for as long as possible. Yes, my heart is over-riding my OCD. Guess that's what love does to you..

I feel slumber trying to take me, so I eventually submit and tuck one hand underneath the pillow. But my hand brushes up against something, so I take it out and have a look. I feel tears prickling my eyes once I see what it is.

'Hey Levi..

Yeah, it probably seems like I planned this, but I actually didn't aha.. I'm sorry. For everything. I don't know if you're upset, mourning my pathetic death, or happy that you don't have to live with me anymore. Either way, I still love you.

I didn't kill myself over you. No.. I killed myself over.. life. It sounds stupid, but I did. What's the point of living if we're all going to meet our inevitable fate; death? Some might say, to cherish the life you had, the memories and friends, your family, everything. Others might say, it's to teach us a lesson. To be honest, I don't know what I think of it.. But the thought.. I thought.. I couldn't bear hurting someone else. I know this might've hurt a lot more people than I intended, or less, but then.. Then they know what it's like to lose someone I guess, I'm not sure..

Thank you, for everything, I wouldn't have made it this far if it wasn't for you.

Hey, remember the first time we went to that little forest patch with the oak tree and fireflies? That was a good night.. You and your OCD.. But that's why I fell in love with you.

You were nosy, and you were cold. You had a wall put up, and you were and are strong. But I found my way through, because some people know how to push certain buttons. I love you, Levi. I really do. So it is to my greatest pleasure that I got to meet you, and that I get to say I've fucked Levi Ackerman.

Pass this message onto Riley and Paps? Thanks.

Riley. You're strong and brave, and you have ambitions to fulfill. So go for it. Join the Survey Corps, kick those Titan asses. I know you'll do great. I love you, stay strong.. For me.

Paps. Thanks for everything. For getting me to stop, for making me stronger.. For taking me in when I had no where else to go. You supported me through everything, and I will always be indebted to you. Take care of Riley for me. Love you papsicle, keep spreading your contagious smile.

I love all three of you dearly, and I love all of my friends too.

But hey, I want my life to be remembered, not my death mourned. I had a great life, no matter the little issues. Thank you, everyone, for helping me along my journey. So hey, throw a little party or something, something to celebrate what my life was, what I did, not what I didn't and the life I didn't get. Because if I'm honest? I wouldn't change a thing.

I love you all, so until I see you all in hell! (yes, we're all going to hell my lovelies), stay fabulous and strong, and make sure you don't leave one last Titan scumbag roaming! .. Except for Eren, he's the exception ;) Oh! And good luck with Annie, just tell her to piss off or something, that'll do it!

Thank you all! <3

- (f/n) xXx'

Tears dripped onto the parchment as my eyes went blurry and I could barely see. I put the letter onto my bedside table and return to my previous position, hoping to could sleep for as long as possible without having to go and see Riley and Paps, to pass along her message.. To everyone else too.

I let out a few whimpers, more tears sliding down my red cheeks. As I slide my hand back under the pillow, I feel something else.

'Eh?'

I pulled it out. It was a copper necklace with an oval locket at the end. I open the locket to see 'I love you' engraved onto the inside and a picture of me and (f/n) while she was sleeping on my lap. I close the locket and look at a little note stuck onto the chain.

Don't forget me.

I nod as if she was really there, and slide it over my head, tucking it beneath my clothing. I fall asleep shortly afterwards, although tears continued to fall during the night.

'I love you too..'

And for what he thought might be the last time for god knows how long, he smiled as he thought of (f/n).

'Rest in piece, Cadet.'

{{Okay, epilogue done! What did you think? Was it okay? xd Vote and comment if you liked, and if you fancy check out my other shitty fanfiction; Survive. It's an Annie x Eren fanfic, requested by MagicalElen. Go check her out too, she's awesome :) Anyways, thank you for all the reads and votes, and even though there aren't many, I'm still extremely happy and grateful :D As always though, until next time reader-chans! Stay fabulous <33}}