Undeniable Truths

38~ Not Yet

There are at least seventeen ways that could have gone better. Literally. Like, I'm counting them right now. I wasn't expecting her to run out like that. I just wanted to state my side of the situation, but she seemed so scared of what I was saying. Does she really want a child that bad?

I've never been very good with children. Even when I was a child, I didn't enjoy hanging out with people my own age. I wanted to engage in adult conversations to stimulate my mind. I wanted to learn, and be mature. My mother didn't like it, she wanted me to grow up as slow as possible. Be innocent. I was dead set on not letting that happen.

Against her wishes, I took the dark mark. Against her wishes, I took on the mission of killing Dumbledor. Against her wishes, I killed Draco Malfoy to become Perceus Weinberg. Now, against mother's wishes, I'm arguing with Granger and denying having a child with her.

A year before I took my current position, I was offered the head of the pediatric division position. I said no. Working with children everyday didn't appeal to me. Mother asked me why I turned it down so many times. She said I should've jumped at the opportunity to improve my career. Once I took the head of the auror accident division, she was so excited, but she still asked about the pediatric position. She wanted me to work with kids in hopes that I'd end up liking them.

The only kids I'm good with are Teddy and Korrin. But I missed the first four years of their lives. And if I get tired of them, I can send them home. With your own kid, you can't do that. If you're annoyed with them, well sucks to be you. I couldn't handle that. I'm still figuring stuff out about myself, how am I supposed to do that with a munchkin running around?

I knock on Hermione's door, "Granger, let me in. I'm sorry. Maybe we should talk about this."

I hear a mumbled, "Go away," through the door.

"Please, just let me in. I'm sorry," I plead.

"I said go away," she states.

I can hear the sadness in her voice, and it kills me. I use my wand to unlock the door and walk it.

"I'm sorry." Whack. I'm met with a pillow being thrown at me, "Was that really called for?"

She sits up in bed, "I told you to go away. I don't want to talk right now."

I roll my eyes, "What is this really about? You can't possibly be this upset about me not being ready for a family."

"It's not about that. It's about you completely shutting down the idea of us ever having a family! You made it sound like it was the last thing you could ever want. Am I really that bad?" Granger yells.

"I never said I never wanted a family. I said I'm not ready yet. Yet, Hermione. Not never. We're still young, why do we need to rush into having a baby?" I reason.

She sighs, "I already have a baby. I know I'm ready for another. And I know that when I do have another child, I want to have it with you. I know what I want. I want you, and I want a family with you. No one else."

I freeze, "I want you too, but I've never really wanted to have a family. I've never been into children, children were always something I knew I was going to end up with, to carry out the family name. But it wasn't a choice."

Hermione glares, "Well nice to know that if I do have a child that I'll be forcing you into it. Thank you for that."

"That's not what..."

"No! You have no need to justify yourself to me. I'll be a perfect wife for you who you can use to carry on your family name and then I'll have my own room and we'll never see each other. Sorry for forgetting my place," Granger snaps.

"That's not what I meant! Why won't you just let me explain!"

"Don't bother. You don't have to explain yourself to me. I'm going to do my makeup and find a shelf to sit on until you feel the need to show me off."

"You're being unreasonable!" I snap.

"I... I'm being unreasonable! You're not listening to me! You're just shutting down everything I have to say! Whatever, I'm done. I have shit I need to get done for work," Granger yells.

"Herm..." I trail off as she leaves the room.

Good job, Draco, you really messed up this time.