Chapter 13: Staying True To Nature.
Jessie J- Who you are
The bell rang. The end has brought about a new beginning. I spread my hands a little and tilted it slightly at a 20 degree to my body. Letting the air travel freely through the space in between my finger. These steps I take, filled with insecurities and illogical determination. It doesn’t make sense. Nothing ever did anyway. So screw that, invading her privacy shall be deemed cool by me. All will be cool.
‘Yuri say hi. It is polite to greet someone you know.’ Yes it is polite but not always required. Then I felt a soft tap on my left shoulder. ‘Hello there Jessica shi.’ I turn around and nodded my head in acknowledgement. ‘Want to have lunch together?’ Do I really need to? My shoulder drop a little. Then my head just faced down a little. ‘Busy?’ Now I’m stuck in the awkward issue of pondering what to answer. 'Please say yes.' Is that a thought or a statement to me? Either way, I'm caught in the middle. I wanted to invade privacy, not to have mine disturbed.
My head fixed. My mouth dry. The lips, needless to say, shut. Hence all that occurred during the seconds of silence was me looking awkwardly at her while she looks at me edgerly. Suddenly, the look changed and she pouts before changing it into a worried expression. ‘Oh no. Jesica shi doesn't like me. ' Then her puppy eyes appears as she continues, 'do you dislike me, Jessica shi’ I shake my head with the truth. She suddenly takes a step towards me. Startled, I could only lean back. Was my sub-conscious really believing in her false claims? It is false right? Plus...isn’t she a little too close for comfort?
‘I don’t like it that you might dislike me.’ Her eyes, the way the pupil is darkening with every passing second. The tone that she used was so stern. Her whole demeanor is sending shivers down my spine. Out of a sudden, her hands grabs my shoulder. ‘You can’t dislike me Jessica shi.’ Terrified for to some reason that my mind can’t comprehend. My head nodded like I was a puppet confining to her wish.
Once she recognize my action of complying, she smiled again. The way her expressions change in that split second......it was like she was more than meets the eye. The type of person that I swore never to approach. For the simple fact that, that such individual, you couldn’t predict. Like you. Unpredictable. Like the wind. Hard to grasp. Like love. Hard to understand. Cause when it boils down to what is their foundation as a being, it will always be ascertain as emotions. Emotions that posses the power of impulsive recklessness. Plus I hate unpredictability.
‘Jessica shi.’ She command for my attention. My bidding to the call as my vision focused on her once more. ‘Do not fear the turbulence. Enjoy it. It is nothing more than a prolonged ripple effect. It is all very beautiful.’ She patted my head.'Plus I'll always be there with you.' Her eyes looking at mine. Saliva travelled roughly down my throat. 'Always.' My goosebumps protested while my feet disobediently stayed rooted to the ground. ‘Little mary thought the lamb was following her. Silly mary didn’t know the truth behind all the fluffy wool. Right? Jessica shi.’ I didn’t get it. Didn’t want to get it.’ ‘I’ll see you around Jessica shi.' She took three steps before turning around once more. 'Oh and please don’t forget this little fact. I like you, Jessica shi.' Her smile wide. I'm deeply shaken by her smile and her confession of....love? Then wind, she left the scene. No fuss. Nothing but normalcy of reality.
This place that has surrounds me. These buildings that towers over me. The walkway that may not be under my feet. Just who are all these individuals and why am I thrown into the mix. Was I one of His projects that was done with fifty percent? Was I part of the clueless that couldn’t see His wisdom? Is it because of the lack of full commitment that throughout these years all I obtain is confusion?Suddenly, a weight of twenty cows seem to have landed on my back. My whole body swayed forward. If it wasn’t for a force that held me back, my tender lips would have crashed itself on the rough pavement.
