Chapter 17: Breaking Point
Exhausted- Foo Fighters
‘Here to stir more trouble? Enticing.’ I turned to face her. ‘Oh please don’t let me stop you. Carry on. I’m just here for the exciting future.’ My fist clenched in a tight ball. ‘Why? Smile a little. You always frown at me. That look isn’t cute dear.’ Hyoyeon's head tilted down, giggled for a brief second when she saw my hardened fist. ‘Violence to fill up the silent void. I so~ wish that I had met you sooner.’
My eyes could only fill with rage. Why does she always bring out the demon in me? It is like she is destined to screw me up badly with every encounter. ‘Darling. Weren’t you going in?’ Her eyes twinkled with anticipation and excitement. Whatever. Argh! Anyway what good can I do even if I saw her. So what if I did face her? Do I even know what to say to her? The answer is no. I turned to glare at Hyoyeon then turned to walk away, I pointed the tallest finger at her. ‘I always like Steph’s fingers,' she chuckled loudly.
What did she meant by that? I ran and grabbed her by the collar. Still, she was rolling with laughter. ‘Oh come on. Did you wish her destination to be you?’ My eyes stared her down. ‘You really did?’ While laughing, her saliva lightly drizzled at my face. Roughly, I pushed her laughing body away. Even though she landed with thud, her stupid mouth still spewing out mockery’s laughter. ‘Jessica Jung Sooyeon. You, my darling, are the best joke there is. I’m so glad you are here!’I so want to kill her. I so want to stab her. I so want to knife her and fling her out of the tallest building. My breathing becomes heavier with every molecule in my body raging with anger. Then, came the tears of frustration. Her laughter simply grew in its volume.
‘I love your insanity moments. I love it!’ Out of nowhere, a shadow passed by me and laid a punch on her. ‘Get out of here.’ Her eyes must have been icy. Cold enough to put a full stop to the mental’s laughter. Hyoyeon's face hardened and match the seriousness of her attacker. ‘Don’t block the good show.’ I couldn’t see her look of response and she didn’t say a word. It was like the two of them were having a showdown with their eyes while I played the role of the crying idiot. ‘Don’t carve your issues onto Yul.’ Another few moments of silence rolled along. I looked at her back view. Unable to understand, unable to comprehend what was the implication of their exchanging glances.
‘We all have issues. I’m forcing all you fools to embrace them.’ I saw her smugly lick the side of her lips. It was like, she had won their battle. Who is she? What goes on in her brain? Just what kind of current flows through her body? Are they black? Is there even a heart in there? Suddenly she stood up, shifted her body to the left, to look me straight in the eye with the same messed up smile on her face. ‘I’m still in support of your stupidity darling.’ Next she skipped off. Happily whistling a tune as she became that bad encounter.
Meanwhile, I’m still tearing. In fact, I’m now trembling.
She didn’t turn around, only heaved a great sigh. Sighing once more while her left hand brushed through her luscious locks. ‘Go find your girl. Tell her to fix Hyo up. Tell her that Yul is better.’ She turned around. Our teary eyes meeting with each other. Our hurt reflected in each other’s eyes. There is pain. ‘Ms Jessica Jung. Make me choose once more. Impose your presence in my life once more. Then it wouldn’t be anyone else making your life a living hell.’ Fiercely, Sooyoung walks in front of me. Squats right in front of my face, showing me the seriousness of her last statement.‘Cause you will be in hell.’
With then leaving me on the ground, she stormed off. At that time, I could only cuddle my legs together. Rocking my body, all I could think is that I can’t take this. I can’t understand anything. Every move I make. Every step I take. I’m being burned. Exploding into bits, messing up everyone around. Just what is my purpose? Just where does this path lead to? Just what is this! My eyes shut tighter as the frustration makes tears flow at a greater intensity.
