Misunderstood

Chapter 17

*Emily's POV*

For the rest of the day Camila wasn't around me as much as usual, but hey it's alright I'm used to being alone. I didn't even bother waiting for her after school. I walked down the sidewalk alone listening to music. My phone buzzed. It was Camila. 

Camila: Hey Emily where are you?

Me: Walking home...you took long and I decided to leave.

Camila: What? Really? Ugh fine I'll just tell Caleb to drive me.

I ignored that message. She's been dating Caleb for a month now, She seems happy and he's a nice guy but I think Camila is becoming to obsessed with him. 

I reached my house and I noticed Alex was there. He rolled down his window. "Hey there Em" I was surprised. "Uh Alex? What are you doing here?" "Nothing I just came to visit. I brought food." I smiled "Alright come in." I said unlocking the door. 

"Hey I brought enough food fro three. Want to see if Camila wants some?" I rolled my eyes and handed him my phone. "You call her I'm done with her for today" He took it and dialed her number "Hey Camz", It's me Alex. Uh we were wondering if you wanted to join us with some food?" Silence. "Ok bye" He hung up. "What she say?" I asked "That she will be here in 10 minutes. She is still at school. Hey didn't you walk with her like always?" "Psh oh yeah totally. She's been acting weird like I told you." He thought for a bit. "Do you think it'd because of Caleb?" he finally said. I shook my head. "I hope not" I responded.

A few minutes Camila walked in the door without knocking. It's fine that's what I do when I go to her house. "Hey guyzz" "Sup" Alex responded mouth full of pizza. Camila took a slice and bit it. "Nothing just you know came from school because someone didn't wait on me." She said turning to me "Sorry not sorry" I responded. She stuck her toung out at me. Then she started talking about Caleb again I zoned out on her.

~*Hour later*~

Alex and Camila left and I quickly cleaned a bit and then I did my homework. I had finally got my grades up. Then I took a shower and watched some TV. I got tired after a while and just went to bed even though it was kinda early. 

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The next morning I woke up a bit late so I put on whatever was in my way and I rushed out the door, Since when do I care about being late?

Camz was Crossing the street when I got to our meeting place. I caught up with her. "What's up my girl" she said. "Oh nothing just a little late" "I can tell" She said. We both walked in silence.

once we got inside we both wen't our own way. She went the opposite way , I went to my locker. I got out my history book since that's my homeroom and second class. As I closed my locker Alyssa came up to me. "What the hell do you want?" I asked her. She smirked. "Where is Camila? Did she ditch you for cooler people? Aw don't worry I wouldn't want to hang out with a cutter either." How the hell did she know? "Well you know what I don't cut myself, and Camila would never do that" She crossed her arms "Oh yeah well I've seen your scars, and why don't you look she has better people around her and it's not you." With that she turned around and left.

I stood there I looked behind me and there she was with her boyfriend and his friends laughing. I turned and walked down to class. No Camila would never leave me..Right?

I sat down and took out my book and started 'reading'. Camila walked in late. "Hey girl why did you leave me? I was looking for you." Oh yeah sure she was. I rolled my eyes "Yeah..I didn't want to be late you know." She frowned "Since when do you care about being late?" I ignored that question and turned back to the book I was suppose to reading.

History class ended and I made my way to Science this time with Camila next to me. "So Emily what you doing after school?" I took a while to answer. "Staying home while you go to the dance with Caleb" she turned to me "Please don't tell me you're mad." "Oh no I'm not mad." I mumbled and walked into the classroom.

As soon as I walked Alyssa turned to Carrie and said something. They both laughed and looked at me. I ignored them and opened my book to the page that was on the board. But they kept on doing it thorough out the class.

 When the bell rang they came over to me. "Hey there Emily. Long time since we have talked right?" I looked at them "It has and I've been enjoying it and don't look forward to it again," I answered. I stood up. Camila was waiting at the door. "What did they want?" I shook my head "Nothing" 

By the time lunch came I decide to pretend that I wasn't really mad at Camila. I don't want any trouble, When she came over to me I smiled. "Well someone brightened up" She said. "Mhm" I responded eating my cake. She taught me to eat my dessert first."Hey, so you're copying me now?" she pointed at my cake, I laughed. "Learned from a great teacher." She laughed. 

At the end of the day i was putting my things back in my locker. When Megan came up to me. She has never came to me since 8th grade. I looked at her. "Why so alone? Did Camila leave you?" Of course she was acting like this she's been around Alyssa and Carrie too much. "Shut the fuck up Megan" I closed my locker and looked at her. "No I don't feel like it. You should shut up. You're so fucking annoying. Actually you should go die." I rolled my eyes. I won't let her words bring me down. "I don't even talk to you stupid. Leave me alone." "Ooo so hurtful, what's wrong can't you stand up for your self? Do you need your little friend?" she started to laugh "Baby" I walked away I don't need more of her. "Yeah that's right walk away! Go cut your self!" I heard her yell.

I got home went up to my room I sat on my bed. Was my nightmare going to start over? I thought it had all ended. I saw a razor on my desk. I stared at it. Megan's last sentence was ringing in my head. "Go cut yourself!" Should I? It's been 2 months since I did. I kept looking at it. It's calling me. I got up and walked to it, and picked it up. I promised Camila I wouldn't do it again. But she has been ignoring me. Does it matter if I promised. She would never know I did. 

I threw the razor across the room. I laid on my bed and cried. It had been a while since I had cried too. It felt good to let it out so I kept crying 'till I fell asleep.