Cri De Coeur ||Mikayuu||

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I just had a thought.

As far as Mika has come, I still think he's terrified of the Ringleader. He didn't tense when he entered rooms, but his sentences did falter, and his eyes shifted nervously. He would take my hand subconsciously, tugging as if he wanted me to understand that he wasn't locked up.

I understood.

I mean, how couldn't I?

He held some fear for that monster.
It was inevitable that he would.
I mean, it was traumatizing. Having to go trough all of that abuse. I was glad he was more outgoing but it was... Difficult to believe. He couldn't have changed so quickly. I never stopped to think that he was working towards the point he was currently at since day one. It was the little victories I celebrated for myself that were signs that he was changing.

It was very small.

One bit of him at a time.

From being aggressive to disgruntled, then to distressed. Now, he has found a resting spot by the top of the hill. Not quite there yet. But he was making progress. I had no idea whether or not if it was because of me or him coming to terms with himself. He was still rather closed off to me.
"I dunno, he's told you some pretty depressing stuff I wouldn't tell my friends."
Fair point.

On the topic of progress, The Ringleader made Mika cry on Wednesday. I didn't know why or how, but he walked over to me sniffling and very angry. It was at this time when I remembered the first time I had seen the grown up Mika. His tired eyes seemed like he had been crying previously. Puffy and red. Was it from the Ringleader back then as well?
"God, I hate this place. I hate him being in this place. He ruins it." Mika seethed, burrowing his head into a curtain, muffled screaming following.
"Wow. This is vastly entertaining." Colette commented from above. She was dangling from her legs on a metal hoop suspended in the air, spinning in circles from it. Her hands were above her head. And no, she wasn't wearing her dress. She was wearing shorts. She grabbed onto the hoop, legs falling off.
"Okay, does everyone in here have extreme upper body strength or am I just weak?"
"Uh.... Yes?" Lola said, answering my question with uncertainty.
"I actually can't hold myself up for too long." Colette pointed out, swinging her legs  through and seating herself on it. This was her own form of rehearsal. I'm pretty sure either she taught Mika all of the strange shit he does or vice Versa. I never wanted to ask why the hell they're as flexible as they are, nor wanted to know.

Okay, I know I've said this about a hundred times before, but I really love Mika.

Even if he isn't completely back to his usual self, I still adored everything about him.

He was wonderful. Even when he was desperately trying to keep all parts of himself a secret, he still took the time to talk and spend time with me, when he could have just ignored me or put on a cold front.

Then, when he did open up to me, it was a gratifying experience. Not like the ones where someone compliments you on your outfit. It's like... "Your mom coming home with a surprise and finding out that she got a puppy" gratifying. It made me feel Special.

Being trusted by him.

He was like a gift, I suppose. I have no idea if he thinks the same way. Actually, I'm not even a hundred percent sure on what his thoughts on me were. I just knew he cared.
A lot.
In his own way, of course.

But it always seemed to make me think, about what would happen if we didn't decide to be very blunt and childish and confess our affection to one another that night. Maybe it would still be the same. But what do I know.

Mika could frustrate me a great deal if I didn't adore him so much, come to think of it. I mean, he's really stubborn when it comes to most things and I'm pretty sure he thinks most of my ideas are absurd.

But hey, he puts up with me and loves me all the same, so I'm in no position to complain.

"Damn right you're not. Do you... Have any guesses as to how you're gonna transfer my consciousness back to me?" Asuramaru asked, snapping me from most of my trance.
"No... Not really." The voice pouted in response.
"What about I possess my own body? I mean, I am the only person who knows where I'm located. Except for A- gah... The ring leader knows where I'm located. That could be some serious trouble. We're fucked if he figures out everything." He groaned. I could hear him slapping a hand to his forehead.
"Is he really smart enough to do that?" I asked.

"And to do much more. He's not just some regular greedy asshole who only cares about money, he's an intelligent greedy scientist who found out the location of a vampire and demon."

The way Asuramaru spoke of the Ringleader... Led me to think he might have known him at some point. I mean, I knew he was some sort of scientist, considering the fact he's conducted genetic mutations on a majority of us. But greedy wasn't something I knew he was. Or the fact that he hunted them down. I didn't ask, considering Asuramaru's told me less about him than Colette of her relationship with the Ringleader. Which is a lot. I watched Mika try to pull Colette down from her perch, her legs kicking out of his leaping reach every time. She laughed, and he got frustrated. It was amusing watching him jump up and down with his hands in the air, grabbing at air. She came down eventually, of course.

Asuramaru sighed.

"God, I didn't think I would have to worry about that bastard. Yuu, kick the Ringleader in the balls for me."
"Now?"
"Of course not. Get him when he's down."
"I'll think about it."

"Think about what?" Mika asked from across me, tilting his head curiously.
"Ah, nothing. Making a deal with him." I said, pointing to my head.
"A deal with a demon? That doesn't sound good."
"Eh, it's fine. He didn't ask for a price. It's always good to make a deal before the demon remembers to give the price you have to pay." I shrugged.

"Okay, you're crazy." He announced.

"Yeah, crazy in love with you."

Mika then snorted violently, shaking his head with a smile plastered on his lips, paired with slightly flushed cheeks.

"You're horrible."