Unstoppable | E.D (on hold)

i miss u.

[A/N : WAZZ GOOD PEOPLE? I'M SO SORRY I DIDNT UPDATE IT'S JUST I DIDNT HAVE ANY INSPIRATION ... AND I THOUGHT U FOUND THIS BORING BUT HERE I'M ! ENJOY !]
-"SHIT WE'RE CRUSHING !"
i turned off the small tv as soon as i saw the plane meeting with the ground in a huge chaos of screaming and flames everywhere devouring the airplane's metallic structure turning its shiny color into coal .
I couldn't stand that horrible scene anymore. My fingers tightened on the armrest causing my knuckles to turn white as i felt the familiar tingling in my finger i squeezed my eyes shut, the pain feels calming,real.
Liza was already snoring beside me, she is so cute and baby-like when she sleeps. It's an 8 hour flight and she's already in dreamland !
I'm sure as hell that she's going to spend the rest 7 hours asleep ! Typical liza ! the view was breathtakin, it was green and blue melting in harmony creating a landscape so beautiful... a masterpiece God created so we mortals can enjoy it and draft away.
Birds were flying beside us as if challenging the plane... after all it's their home not ours.
I should be angry , furious at having my life ripped away but there was just white noise inside me , a dull hum of nothingness.
I mean i get it easier then most of people... i'm not living in the fear of dying suddenly , i mean i have a dead-end and i'm aware of it !
-"You're aware that you're living a cliché moment... Looking out of the window and thinking about all the sad things in your life when yoy should be happy about making your dream come true. ! I didn't expect you to be this cheesy Miss.selena !"
Jason's velevet voice snapped me out of my thoughts and i held his eyes.
He was looking over at me with a funny, lopsided grin.
-" didn't your mom teach you that staring at people is RUDE?"
I slightly hit his shoulder as he dropped his eyes from mine and shrugged
-"whatever!"
My eyes circulated in the plane and i saw that most people were hunched over their laptops or phones or eating.
Gosh I'm so hungry !
-"i'm hungry ! Very hungry " i whined.
-"Then call the steward"
-"i can't !"
-"why?"
-"i don't know... it's just i can't"
-"Ugh ! I'll call her ! What do u want to eat?"
-"Doritos !"
Jason rolled his eyes as he pressed the button over his head. And a friendly woman with long blond hair pulled up in a ponytail came a sincere smile on her face.
He asked her if they had doritos and ordered a fruit salad and then politely thanked her.
-" i need to pee."
I said as i stood up and went to the small restroom where stood a steward talking with a tall guy. Mid-thirties i guessed, very handsome with auburn silkey hair that he combed back to emphasize his breathtaking features.
-"s'cuse me..." i said as i reached the door he was blocking
-"i'm sorry dearie, here..." he said as he slid to thr right with a smile that reached his eyes causing some wrinkles to form on the edge of those emeralds. He seemed inoffensive... but i had this alarming feeling in the back of my mind that this gug isn"t what he pretends to be.
Even though i don't usually welcome people who call me "dearie" or "sweetie" i couldn't help my face breaking into a warm and sincere smile as i thanked him and hurried into the bathroom.
I struggeled to take off the freaking body suit and i sat on the seat after completely stripping down.
Click.
Crap. Did i seriously forget to lock the door? Ughh.
And in a blink i was by tge door blocking it.
-"there's someone here...i guess" i shouted as i felt heat rushing to my cheeks.
Awkward.
-"i'm so sorry i didn't know...
Tge door was unlocked."
A masculine voice... he was rushing on the words and muttering.
Wait! Jason?
-"jason? Is that you?"
-"sel? Ugh!"
-"wait till i come out!"
-"but you went to the other cabine!"
-"no, i didn't !"
-"but i saw you go there!"
-"clearly, and as my presence here prouves...i didn't go that way."
No response.
-"shh... people are watching...it's a bit awkward and weird ... just i'll go back to my seat.."
I couldn't help but laugh as i heard him whisper clearly embaressed he deserves it 😂😂
I relaxed a bit and locked the door before going back to my unfinished buisness.
Fully clothed , i washed my face with some cold water to refresh it.
Piercing blue eyes were staring back at me.
I can't believe i'm leaving this.
After two weeks i'll be gone for real. Like that!
But why am i not sad about it? Heck i should be depressed.
But i'm not.
Maybe it's because i consider it a relief... no more problems...no more this and that... just peace ... and death of course.
An easy getaway from all this.
What if..
There's always a "what if"that unfortunately echoes in our minds and souls deep deep down.
always a "what if" that's imposing itself no matter what the odds are.
And that "what if" is that piece of your shredded heart that's still holding to life. Wanting to fight, wanting to be knowed.
But you just can't kill it or mute it.
Because it's simply not yours to kill or to harm , it belongs to your beloved ones : your family, your friends.
And it's theirs even after you leave.
[A/n : it was actually "but" instead of "what if" but if you replace the what if with butt you'll find your self talking about ass and i dont want that 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂]

Also i might be posting a new chapter after this because i didnt upload in a long time i'm so sorry !😐