His Exception (Ongoing)

yeah?

yeah?

Kase

 
I once felt this same level of frustration and anger when I join the army. I close my eyes in hope to calm my self. I have learned a very valuable lesson when I serve three years of my life inside to train my self. I don't understand at first because my life is very different before and I need to adjust inside to fit in.

And after years of sufferring in hell I'm back to my normal life again.

Para akong sinilaban nung makita ko silang mag kasama at nag uusap. I wasn't ready to see her with anyone besides me. Anger build inside me but I couldn't do anything but to blame my self, to the things that happened that no one deserve.

Unfair right? Because I couldn't blame her. I couldn't cope with my self either. I don't like that thought of her being happy with someone else. Ako dapat yung nag papasaya sa kanya.

"What the fuck?!"

I exhale, It felt like I run a track. I was holding my breath for too long to control my anger.

"Diba sabi ko umalis kana?!"

Jealousy is poison. You'll forget everything.

Natauhan lang ako nang marinig ko ang galit na boses ni Cassandra.

She left.

With him.

I was speachless.

Hindi ako nag alinlangan na sundan sila. I borrowed Victor's car and left them. We should be visiting his mom you know? for old time sake.

When I get there, pumasok agad ako sa loob at narinig ko si Gino na nag sasalita.

"Thank you Cass for letting me be with you all this years. Hindi ko pinag sisisihan na minahal kita,"

Parang sumakit yung ulo ko sa mga narinig ko. Muntik ko na makalimutang matalik kaming mag kaibigan. Pumagitna si Cass samin, More of covering me so I can't do anything to him.

"Let go of him Cass he needs to know,"

"What do I need to know?" I look at Cassandra. She looked terrified.

"Don't worry It's gonna be okay," He says to her.

I have no patience for this kind of back and forts between him and Cassandra.

"Pwede bang deretchuhin mo nalang ako andami mo pang sinasabi!" Tumataas na ang boses ko dahil sa inis.

"I will leave but you need to calm down and listen to me first,"

He exhales first before continuing. "Cassandra is sick."

"She just finished her chemo when you came back. She's doing okay if you're worried,"

I don't know what to say. My anger just flew out of the window. I'm worried, very. Of her, Because I had no idea she's going through that without me being with her.

"She just needs rest, Hindi pwede kay Cass na ma stress. This is bad for her but you need to know what's going on. I had no time to tell you, You came back out of nowhere bro."

I'm so stupid.

"I didn't know. I'm sorry," My voice breaks in between my words.

Napaupo nalang ako habang nag sasalita si Gino sa mga dapat na gawin ko bago siya umalis. That she had cancer on uterus, That there are chances that we won't have kids, That she needs rest, Her meds, Her scheduled appointment to my Tita Victoria. Everything that I need to know then he left kissing her forehead.