His Exception (Ongoing)

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Cassandra

  
I'm still processing in my head what had happen yesterday. Sa tagal naming mag kaibigang dalawa, iyon palang ang una naming hindi pag kakaintindihan.

Like ano naman sasabihin ko? Ako ba mali? Ako ba dapat yung mag sorry kasi ako yung unang nagalit? Hindi kona alam. Miski yung utak ko nahihirapan nang mag isip nang dahilan kung bakit ang init ng ulo niya sakin lagi. Ayaw niya rin naman mag sabi I mean I tried to talk to him but now I didn't want talk to him anymore and I don't want to see him.

Speaking of the devil.

Kase is waiting for her. Halatang ako ang iniintay nito dahil hindi iyon umaalis sa pwesto. Agad siyang bumalik sa loob ng campus nang makita niya ito kahit na kanina pa tumunog ang bell. Our eyes met before I can even turn right to escape.

Bakit ba kung kelan ayoko siyang makita muna tsaka siya dun susulpot nalang bigla?! Bulyaw niya sa kaniyang isip. Dumeretcho siyang ladies room dahil alam niyang hindi na siya masusundan pa doon ni Kase pero nag kamali siya.

"What??" matapang niyang tanong kahit pa kinakabog na ng kakaibang kaba ang kanyang dib-dib. Sinalubong niya ang deretcho at walang ekspresyong tingin nito sa kanya. "Anong..ginagawa mo? hindi ka pwede dito!" patuloy niya pang sabi ngunit patuloy parin ito sa pag lapit sa kanya.

Hinaltak nito ang kanyang kamay at hinila. "S-sandali lang Kase, nasasaktan ako ano ba!" akala niya'y lalabas na sila ngunit nag kamali siya. Napapikit siya nang malakas siya nitong sinandal sa likod ng pinto habang hawak nito ang kanyang mag kabilang braso, siniil siya nito ng nag babagang halik. Sinubukan niya parin itong itulak palayo pero mabilis itong naka lapit sa kanya. Siniguro nitong hindi na siya makakawala dahil mas pinalapit pa nito ang sarili.

I was so helpless.

Hindi na ako nag pumilit pang pumiglas dahil lalo lang akong masasaktan. Lumuwag ang pag kakahawak nito sa kanyang braso nang masigurong hindi na siya muling papalag pa. I didn't drop my hand, I placed it in his hair down to his neck. I let him kiss me fully this time.

Ganoon pala ang feeling na mahalikan ng isang Charle Kase, no wonder women voluntarily throwing themselves at him. Dahil nakakabaliw ang mga halik nitong pinaparamdam sa kanya, His skillful tongue enters inside my lips, tasting me and I to him. He taste like mint. I open my eyes and I saw him lick his lips before looking back at me.

"Hmm... cherries I like it." His eyes is full of emotion that I haven't seen before. Maaaring ang kanyang lipbalm ang nalasahan nito.

Hindi niya maintindihan kung anong gustong sabihin ng mga mata nito.. Saglit lamang iyon at muli rin siya nitong hinalikan, slower this time.

I was out of breath, we both were. Hindi parin nito inaalis ang kamay sa kanyang bewang, hindi niya makita ang mukha nito dahil naka sub-sob iyon sa balikat niya. "We need to stop before we even do that thing in here,"

My heart is hammering inside my chest as he hold my hand and drag me outside. Tahimik silang umalis sa campus na hindi nag babanggit na ano pa mang tungkol sa nangyari kani-kanina lang.

"And I donʼt want to do our first time in that cheap comfort room, you were far to be like them. And will never be like them, ʼʼ

Will never be like them? Talagang hindi ako katulad ng mga naging babae niya. Unang una hindi siya maganda. Alam niya naman yon. Hindi niya naman to hinangad. I was peaceful with my life. Kuntento na ako ang bestfriend niya. It was all his fault why my feelings were hoping for something more than just being his bestfriend.

...

He was driving.

Malamang ay ihahatid siya nito sa kanyang bahay.

So that's it right?

So I'm just like every one else in the school who desired him. I guess he must've felt it long enough before I can even accept it to my self.

I don't even know what are we now after that. I mean I didn't even stop him. I was so weak to even speak. So stupid to just stood there and let him do what he wants. I shouldn't let him in the first place. Parang sinugal ko narin yung sarili ko sa kanya. Ano nang balak niya ngayong yung mismong bestfriend niya gusto na rin siya? I didn't even think. He must have think so low of me.

Hindi niya napansin na nakarating na sila sa kanyang bahay.

I let my self out. My chest is empty just like my apartment. We enter inside and he just follow me.

I'm too afraid to ask him. Mas mabuti nang wala akong alam kesa sabihin niya sa mukha ko mismo yung totoo.

"I'm sorry Cassy. Hindi ko dapat ginawa yun. Fuck!"

I faced him with all my strength that's left. I don't know what to say and how to react. I should be angry right? but why am I crying?

He come closer again.

Wala siyang ibang sinasabi kundi sorry lang.

"Cassy..."

"Ano pa bang gusto mong sabihin ko sayo?" sabi niya rito. Inalis niya ang pag kakayakap nito sa kanya.

"Alam mo naman na diba. That's okay It's fine. You have no fault of what happened. I know, I understand."

Tinignan niya lamang ako nang naka kunot ang kilay.

"Hindi naman ako nag eexpect ng kahit na ano sayo wag kang mag alala."

"What.. What are you talking about Cass?" he sound so pissed. Me too, I mean I don't know anymore.

"You are not obligated to return the favor Kase." mas gusto niya nalang na ganon kesa malaman na pinipilit lang nito na mahalin siya.

"What favor?"

"Nakakairita ka naman!" bulyaw niya rito. Hindi na niya napigilan pang mapaluha. "Gaano kaba ka manhid? Kailangan ko pabang sabihin sayo na mahal kita bago mo pa maramdaman?"

Gusto niya itong sapakin. He acted so shocked. Ganto ba talaga siya?

"Are you fucking serious!" how can he be so excited about my tragic confession?

I wiped my tears. "You can go now."

"No I'm not going anywhere."

"Can you just leave and let me cry alone?"

I didn't even realise how stupid he was. Ano pa bang gusto niya? Panuorin akong umiyak at mag sisi sa harap niya? I just ruined our friendhip ugh.. Guess that makes the two of us.

Muli niya akong hinawakan. But this time I felt weird. It was different or it's just me?

I face him as he holds my face. "I'm sorry for taking advantage of you. I.. I just can't help it... I missed you." he looks down like he was shy.. "I'm not used to this things Cassy... I didn't know how to voice out my feelings just like what you did. You were so brave.

"I'll try to express it as might as I could. Be ready baby."

"Sandali nga lang. An-Anung baby? Anong be ready pinag sasabi mo? Teka lang Charle Kase ah!" I removed his hands travelling down my body. Aba't hindi naman ako kaladkarin. Hindi naman porket sinabi kong mahal kona siya e agad agad na siyang makaka score sakin.

Did he just kiss you and you just let him?

Twice, mind you.

Shut up brain.

"Sabi mo mahal mo ko eh!"

"Yeah and so?"

"Wala nang bawian." sabi nito sa kanya habang naka ngiti nang pamatay.

Oh boy. I dont like that smile.

"I don't undestand Charle."

"I'll make you undestand." deretcho parin ang tingin nito sa kanya. He wasn't smilling anymore. I felt my heart racing again.

"Now can we continue what we left at the campus?"

Oh my god. What have I let my self into?