Xzavior drove off from the school and headed straight to the grave yard where his father is.
He dosn't like to think of his father as "dead", when someone asks he just said that he "went away". It makes it seem less painful than it really is in his mind, and when someone says "dead" there is just a huge wave of emotion and he can't take it and has mental break downs. Still after a year of his father being gone it hurts just like the day it happened. Xzavior approaches his fathers grave and can barely hold back the tears that have already began to form in his eyes.
Xzavior:
Hey daddy. I know I haven't came to see you in a while. I'm sorry. I haven't forgotten about you I promise, I miss you a lot. I want to be with you again. I started cutting again. I was clean for a month and then something triggered it to start back. I'm sure you knew that though. It's hard being without you. Izzy is the only person I have anymore. Me and mom still don't talk. I haven't even seen her in 2 months. The last time we had a real conversation was a few months after you went away. I don't really miss her though. I just miss you. I don't want to leave Izzy. I know she needs me. She is only 13, but I really want to be with you daddy. And Izzy...She is so mature. It's like she is the older one. Not me. She could take care of herself, and she still has mom. Daddy I need to be with you. I can't do it anymore. I still remember the last words you said to me.. "I love you baby boy. We will be together again one day. Stay Strong for your mom and sister. They need you." and then you where gone. Just like that.
Xzavior sat there looking at the tombstone with his fathers name on it. He pulled his knees up to his chest and cried into them until he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and it was his mother, once he saw her he put his head back down and continued crying. She sat down beside his and put her arm around him, "I know you miss him, so do I. It isn't the same without that man around. He kept us all a family, and now look at us. I haven't seen you in almost 3 months and I only see your sister for a few minutes in the mornings. I'm sorry things have gotten this way."
Xzavior wiped away his tears and looked up at his mother, "You would think that him going away would have brought us closer together as a family, but no. It pushed me and you farther apart".
He got up and walked to his car without giving his mother another chance to speak. She didn't know how bad this had effected him. She didn't feel the pain he was going through. She didn't know about the cuts all over his body. Hell she didn't even know about his tattoo. His mother never really cared about him anyway. His dad is the only reason he wasn't put up for adoption. His mother didn't want him.
Once he realized his mother was gone he went back to his fathers grave.
He knelled down beside him and whispered, "I'll be with you soon daddy. "
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Okay so what do you guys think so far?
I know it isn't the best..but...oh well. It's my first story.
