The One I Love

Goodbyes

SUNA

I throw my phone on my bed after hanging up to Yesung, the truth is I just woke up. These past few days I was drinking alcohol that my body cannot even tolerate. I stayed in the house since that night when those three men came. I locked myself in there, Dongbuk-ajussi often call but I kept ignoring his calls he even came here but I won't open the door for him. I need to be alone, I need to think about everything all over again and consider what is right for me. I have to decide for myself, for me to continue living.

The day came that I'd made a decision. I texted Yesung to meet me at my house. He came in the afternoon.
"Why do you want to see me all of a sudden? It's weekdays." He said and sits on the chair.
"We need to talk," I said seriously.

"I guess you missed me that much, huh?" He added with a teasing tone in his voice while ignoring my serious expression. I gave him a glass of juice and sit on the chair. "Why are you so serious?" He asked again but I kept silent.
"Please be serious," I said.

"I am seriously and madly in love with you." He said with a smile. I look away and try to hold my tears then I feel his hand touches mine. I quickly move my hand away from him.
"Let's stop this," I said not looking at him.
"Yeah, we should. This is too serious the atmosphere is killing me." He said with an awkward laugh. "Besides I'm here to tell you the day we will visit my family. They wanted to meet you."

"I-I can't."

"Why? Because of school? No worry we will schedule it in your free time."

"I can't meet your parents..." I continue and lower my head then I feel his hand on my face. He lifts my head to face him and I couldn't help my tears bursting out.
"Hey, it's okay. I can wait when you're ready." He continues.

"No. You don't understand."

"Then make me." He said while wiping my tears.

"I don't want this anymore." I lower my head again.
"What do you mean?" His voice lowered too and remove his hand from my face.
"Let's break up." I continue.
"Suna..."
"I'm tired of this and I can't stand this anymore!"
"That's why I told you before that we should announce it to the public."
"And what will happen? Do you think everyone will accept it? What if your career falls because of me?"
"I don't care about my career!"
"It's not just you who will fall, the group, your family, everyone will be affected."
"Yoon Suna, here we are again." He said and sighed.
"Because sooner or later we will face this that's why I'm telling this to you now!"
"You said you love me and you're happy with me."
"I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know?"

"I don't know anymore... Maybe it's just infatuation, I don't feel the same way anymore."

"This is not funny anymore." He stood up from the chair.
"Please let me go..."
"Is that really what you want?"

"Yes."

"Then look at me and say that to my face." He firmly said. I turn to him and meet his eyes, my tears dried up a while ago and I can't feel anything anymore.

"I'm begging you, please let me go. Let's break up." I said. He looks at me with a blank expression on his face when he turned around and approaches the door.

"Thank you for the infatuation." He said without looking at me and walked out the door. I sat on the floor and hold my chest as it aches other than that I don't feel anything even tears won't flow out of my eyes.

YESUNG