Do you want to know the sadistic yet beautiful truth
I crave to be tethered to this word by more than a fragile life
No matter what happens or anything you do
I don't feel substantial without the pain of this strife
sometimes I sit in the shower and desire to watch it turn red
But the silly part to this is that the counter opposite can also tether
So that those nights where I feel I'd be better off dead
Instead of doing it alone you try to save me and tell me we will do it together
The pain I feel as my hand glances off the wall blow after blow
Fills that emptiness if even for a second so that I feel substantial
The pain whether it be love to heartbreak is one I know
After knowing all the things I thing and desire his mercy is final
When I desired to end my story or when I thought I'd found my happy ending
Is was never my decision that decided the outcome
There's no way that I could start discerning
This life that day after day felt like the last had come
The burden on my shoulders I can bury it and release its hold on me
By the power of the cross I've finally been redeemed
But even knowing that my heart yearns for pain and won't accept it as true
Blood such a trivial thought to see it cascading like a waterfall
Yet I cannot bring myself to do it because I promised you
That's the only reason not even a drop will fall
