[ JacksepticeyeXReaderXMarkiplier ] ➳ Awake

Chapter 15

Dear Sean.

I know this may seem a little late, and when you read this I might have already left, bound to forget everything again, but you need to read this okay?

I'm sorry. I guess I never really got to tell you how much you mean to me, or to tell you how I'm so angry at myself for bringing you this pain. I want to make it up to you. That's why I wanted to celebrate Mark's birthday again, and hopefully it will turn out fine. I don't want you to remember how everything had happened back then. I want us to pretend that we did make it across to the other side together, and that I didn't forget anything at all. Can we?

Can we ever?

I'm hoping we might.

I'm sorry for being such a burden. I'm also sorry that I fell for the man who did nothing than love me whereas you did so much more. Yes, I'm in love with Mark. And it fucking sucks.

Is it the way his eyes sparkles every time he looks at me? Is it the way his skin makes mine electrified? I don't know, Sean. Maybe it's just an infatuation. Maybe it's all been this lie. But Sean, there is one thing I'm very sure about, because the first time I remembered your name I knew, and I remembered.