[ JacksepticeyeXReaderXMarkiplier ] ➳ Awake

Chapter 4

"(N/N)? You... Why did you come back again?"

(Y/N) turned around, surprised. She was staring at one of the posters about apples. She liked apples. She didn't notice it was opposite an office at all.

Then she recognised those brilliant blue eyes, that green overflowing patch of hair. That warm lovely face. She remembered him all too well.

"Sean!" (Y/N) smiled, jumping on Sean to give him a hug. He staggered back a little, but she could hear him smile for a moment before sighing. Then he gently pushed her off.

"I'm.. I'm sorry (Y/N), I don't have time for your fucking period visits." he said, his tone suddenly serious and looking away. "Every month it's always the same..." he muttered to himself, but (Y/N) couldn't hear him say that last part.

"What period? I don't have my period. Do I?" (Y/N) said, confused. She didn't get what Sean was talking about.

"Nothing just, go away okay? I can't see you anymore." He said sadly, and suddenly (Y/N) realised something. He was in a lab coat.

Was he a doctor?

Didn't he hate medical school?

Why did he look so tired?

Why did he look so old, so pale?

Why did he... what happened to Sean when she slept?

Sean turned to his left, pretending he couldn't see (Y/N) anymore, and walked away from her. (Y/N) stood there, looking at the ground as if trying to make sense of it all, just wanting to ask Sean and pry even further, but when she looked up her heart sank. He was almost out of sight. Like a dot in a sea full of dots.

"Sean...?" (Y/N) said with a shaky voice, as she looked down and stared at her hands. She was just... so...so confused. She was shaking. Her hands were shaking and she couldn't stop them.

"Who am I?"

***

(Y/N) ran.

She ran after Sean, and eventually she caught up with him. He was still ignoring her, despite her constant effort to get his attention. (Y/N) was bummed. Maybe Sean was mad she hugged him. That's why he said all those things.

He could see (Y/N), (Y/N) was sure of it, so it must be because of something. Maybe he didn't have the time for her? Maybe she wasted his time?

She saw Sean entering the staff cafeteria. She was afraid someone might yell at her for going in, so she stood rooted outside, metres away from the door. Sean stopped right in front the door and turned around.

"Just come in. It's welcome to everyone. Just, don't talk to anyone okay?" he said calmly.

(Y/N) nodded.

"Don't talk to me either. You're not there." he said softly, turning his back towards her and opening the doors, but again (Y/N) didn't hear anything at all.

Sean didn't want her to hear.

***

"Hey Felix." I said.

He was busy munching on an apple, and he had a glass of milk by his side. I found it unusual for someone to eat breakfast for lunch, but I knew Felix. He always ate like crazy during dinner. Said he didn't want to have a heavy stomach when checking patients. He didn't want to have such a lazy ass so early in the day. I couldn't argue, because food made people feel tired. It was science.

I bought a cup of black coffee and sat down infront of Felix. He was texting someone.

"Sean, hey. Guess what, I got myself a date on Saturday!" He smiled, pushing his Harry Potter glasses that were sliding off back up on his nose.

"Who? That girl at the mall you saw the other day? The one working at uniqlo?" I asked. (Y/N) was sitting quietly beside me, just observing us, which was exactly what I wanted her to do.

"Yeah. She's not just some girl Sean. She's called Marzia. I picked myself up a date man. What about you huh?" Felix laughed, punching lightly on my shoulder. He suddenly stopped, taking back his hand. His face grew solemn.

"I'm sorry. I forgot." Felix said, looking sympathetic. I felt a lump rising up my throat.

"It's okay, I'll be fine. It's been three and a half years. Don't worry about it. It's time I got a girlfriend." I laughed, looking down and taking a sip of my coffee.

Felix smiled weakly, before going back to texting. I hoped he didn't look back up, and I hoped (Y/N) couldn't see, but a single tear rolled down my cheek.

And I...

I...

I missed her.