SAVED * WATTYS 2016 *

Part 15

Olivia's P.O.V

I throw my shopping bags on my bed. I still can't believe I shopped with Ryan, It feels so different. I am more of a shop alone person. It felt so good to try out different dresses for Ryan. He gave me his honest opinions and I love it. I can do this all the time. I can't wait to wear these dresses to college and see his reaction, I loved the way his eyes racked my body when I tried on different dresses, and his expressions were priceless.

I neatly place those dresses in my closet and sit down to watch Harry Potter. But my mind is sure somewhere else. Today was so unexpected, I bumped into Ryan and we shopped together, he helped me pick dresses and he paid for them which is the only thing I don't appreciate. Jacob never really went shopping with me, we never did normal things, his idea of date was making out , I don't even remember eating with him or even going to the movies. A date for me not only being all lovey-dovey even if you are shopping together, eating together, even just sitting and talking that can be a date too.

I pass out watching Harry Potter, and wake up to my alarm buzzing. I snooze it and try to go back to sleep and then it hits me, today is the day I get to wear one of my new dresses. That's really silly but I am craving for Ryan's reaction so I swiftly get out my bed. I quickly take a shower and take some extra time to get ready, I settle on wearing the pink dress, I slip into the dress and blow dry and straighten my hair. I apply some eyeliner and mascara to make me look more awake than I actually am. I look different, make up does makes a person look different. After staring at my reflection for good five minutes I pick up my bag and wear my floral wedges I don't really wear fancy footwear to college but some days its fine, isn't it?

I reach campus on time and walk to the coffee shop on my way and get few comments from random boys and few girls look at me like they would kill me if they can, which I take as a sign that I am looking pretty and Ryan will love it. Usually I see Ryan at the coffee shop if he reaches on time. I heart starts to pound as soon as reach near the coffee shop. I stand in the line for coffee, looking around and waiting for Ryan. It's my turn, I take my coffee and make my way to the class, still hoping to see Ryan. I wait until the professor starts the class, Ryan does not show up. Somehow I am feeling sad now, what if he does not come? It'll all go waste.

It's the end of the day and Ryan did not showed up in any class. Making my way to my car a tear escapes my eye, I rush to my car and get in and burst into tears.

"He did not showed up the entire week why in the world I thought he would come today? Why I thought he will act different with me just because we went shopping yesterday? Why he acted all sweet?

It's my fault I thought he was different, but no he isn't! Maybe he was just bored going around the mall that's why he came with me. Why would he care to see me in this dress, he doesn't love me the way I do!" I cried.

I cried until all my mascara was dripping down my face, I got some weird glances from people passing by my car, I turned on the engine and drove out of the campus.