SAVED * WATTYS 2016 *

Part 12

OLIVIA'S P.O.V

I wake up at around noon my head is pounding. The number one thing I do is change into my P.J's. I remember everything in bits and pieces, I know Ryan brought me home and he was mad at me. I make myself some breakfast and switch on my TV. But my mind is wandering somewhere else.

I've never been a fan of relationships. To be honest I suck at relationships just like my parents. My parents separated where I was eight, since then I am living with my mom. I remember shattering glasses, screams, cursing and hitting. My dad used to hit my mom and once he almost killed my mom with a kitchen knife. I was little but I understood everything. They dated since high school and got married quite young because my mom was pregnant with me when she was 18. The love they had started vanishing as the years passed and finally they divorced each other happily. I've never seen happy endings so I did not believed in one. But then I met Jacob, I thought I might have a happy ending unlike my parents, everything turned the same way. Jacob played my dad's role and me my mum's. the only difference was my parents left each other happily but in our case I practically have to change the city to stay away from Jacob.

I loved Jacob, I really did but he did not. Or maybe he did, I still don't know if he did or not! After all those horrifying nights when he raped me, hit me, I am finally out of that. But yet again I am here tangled in emotions and attaching strings with Ryan even though I know nothing between us is ever going to work out.

Ryan, there is a thing about him I can't quite make out what but his aura makes me want to be near him. He has a caring side that he hides the best. He makes me want to know him more, all the secrets that he is been hiding all this time. I want to curl up next to him and talk, talk all night and then just fall asleep. I want to slip my hand into his and intertwine my fingers with his.

His lips are always cold, and I love them against my skin, his touch practically gives me Goosebumps. I don't know what to do! I don't want to involve myself in any kind of relationships, because they all start great and end up worse.

I am not feeling well, I go back to my room and snuggle up in my bed. I have this bad urge to text Ryan. We exchanged numbers the night he stayed over. I debate over should I or should I not? But then I do it anyway.

*hi* sent. I shouldn't have done that, I want to smash my phone!

*Hi Olivia* I was not expecting a reply. *feeling good?* two texts in a row.

*Good, thank you.* i am giggling like an idiot.

*Did you eat anything?* why in the world is he so sweet?

* Yeah, pancakes.* I have a big smile plastered on my face.

*Good girl* GOOD GIRL! HE JUST CALLED ME GOOD GIRL.

Ryan's P.O.V

I did not stayed over at Olivia's. I left a little late after making sure that she is sleeping. I don't really have a lot of stuff to do today besides sending some documents to NYU. I am moving to NYU next semester. They have a better course in literature. Thank god I have decent grades. I haven't told this to anyone, I just want to leave Philadelphia and move somewhere else. The people around here are suffocating me. And this is the main reason why I want to stay away from Olivia.

I send all of my documents to the university and make myself some lunch. My phone buzz on the table and it is a text from Olivia. I asked her how she was feeling and if she ate anything or not, we had a very little conversation. I want to go and check on her but I decide against it. I am moving in less than a month and I don't want to get involved in her because it will be harmful for both of us. I know she is fighting her feelings for me I can see the way she gets a little nervous when I am round and how she starts fiddling with her dark hair. I want to stay away from her, she is taking over my mind and heart. I feel positive and happy when I am around her. She is a massive ball of sunshine. But it's not meant to be. We are not meant to be.

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