Don't let me fall alone

Harsh reality

Camila POV

"You always say that to every guy that I've been with. If none of them deserves me then who does?"

"...I do."

I sat there completely frozen. I don't if she's pulling a prank on me right now, considering the fact that between the both of us, she's always been the prankster. But hearing the seriousness of her tone and seeing the anxiousness in her eyes, I don't think this is just another one of her pranks.

"What?"

She continued staring at me. Her eyes filled with...fear.

"I'm in love with you, Camila."

I was at a complete loss for words. Out of everything that I expect she would tell me tonight, that definitely wasn't on my list.

"Please say something..." She urged me when a few minutes has passed and I still haven't said a word.

My mind is still having a hard time contemplating what she just told me. What am I suppose to say at this point? What is someone supposed to say when their bestfriend confessed their love for them?
This is insane.

Since when?
How?
Why?
A hundred questions just popped up in my mind all at once.

Lauren IS in love WITH me.

I love her but one problem,

I'm NOT in love with her.

I'm not even a lesbian.

This is all too much for me.

I caught my boyfriend cheating on me. They're practically shoving their tongue down each other's throats AND my bestfriend confessed her love for me. All in one night. Seriously?!

Anyway, like I said I love Lauren more than anyone else. She's a great person. She's always there for me when I needed her. She's always there to help me when I don't know what to do anymore. She's always there to protect me. She's always there to show me that I matter, if not to anyone, at least to her. She's the best bestfriend anyone could ask for, she's like the sister that God forgot to give me.

But that's the thing, she's like a sister to me.

I'm not in love with her.

I was about to tell her my inner monologue when I heard her say,

"You know what actually, just don't say anything. I don't think I'm ready to be faced with the harsh reality."

Without another word, she get up from the couch and opened the door, signalling that it's time for me to leave.

So I did.

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Lauren POV

I closed the door feeling infinitely more heartbroken than before.

I told her I'm in love with her.

But she didn't say anything.

I guess it's better for now. I thought I was ready for whatever that she was going to say.

But I'm not.

Maybe because deep down I'm still holding on to that 0.00001% that she'll say she feels the same way about me.

But the look on her face after I told her that I love her says otherwise.

I know what she's about to say.

But I stopped her because...

once she finally say that she doesn't feel the same way about me out loud, it will make it all the more real.

That she loves me.

But she's not in love with me.

And she'll never be.