Don't let me fall alone

Start of the end

Lauren POV

It's been a week.

No calls. No texts. No anything.

Maybe I lost her for good.

Maybe it's for the best.

Camila POV

It's been a week.

I thought about calling her.

I thought about texting her.

But what would I say? Is there anything left for us to say?

For me to say?

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"Laur, can we talk please?"

After hours and hours of deliberating whether I should talk to her or not, here I am, standing outside her door, praying to all the gods to give me the courage to talk to her.

But why am I so nervous?

What do I really want to say to her?

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Lauren POV

"Laur, can we talk please?"

This is it. This is the moment where Camila and I are going to be official.

Officially strangers.

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"I'm sorry it took me so long before deciding to talk to you."

Camila broke the agonizing silence that lingered between us the moment that she entered my apartment.

"No. I'm sorry. I never should've told you my feelings in the first place, considering what just happened between you and Shawn."

"How long have you been in love with me?"

"A while."

"Laur, I'm sorry I didn't know. If only I had known-"

"What? What difference would it make?"
I suddenly snapped at her. My feeling's getting the best of me.

"I-I don't know."

"That's what I thought."

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Camila POV

This is harder than I thought. I should've thought first what I'm going to say before coming here because obviously, I'm not making things any better or easier for the both of us, if anything, I'm only making it worse.

"Listen. In all honesty, I don't know what to say when I decided to talk to you but-"

"Then why did you come here? To remind me of my feelings for you?"

"Lauren, I don't wanna fight for god's sake! So please, shut the f*ck up and let me talk."

That's ironic coming from me, I know. I said I don't wanna fight but here I am yelling at her.

But hey, that seemed to work.

"Ok. Like I said, I don't know what to say so please bear with me.

Before anything else, you know that I love you right? I really do, more than anyone else. But I never thought that that love wouldn't be enough-"

"No. No. It's not that it's not enough, I just-"

"Hey. I asked you to listen to me, didn't I? You'll get your turn."

"Yeah, sorry."

"Ok. Where was I? Right. I love you but not in the way that you want me to.

When you told me that you're in love with me, I was completely caught off-guard. I didn't know you were having this feelings for me because, wow, you're really good at hiding it.

Or I guess I just never really saw your love in that way because you're like a sister to me.

But now, looking back, I see it and I feel like the world's biggest idiot for being so damn oblivious.

Your warm smile everytime you see me. Your thoughtful gestures. You staying up late just to listen to my dramas even though we both know your undying love for sleep. Your sincere 'I love you's.

I see it now. And I'm sorry it took me so long.

It took me so long before I realize that...

You looked at me a little bit longer for you to consider me just as your friend, as your bestfriend."

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Lauren POV

After hearing her say all of that, I got the courage to tell her everything too.

If this is going to be the end of our friendship then so be it. I just want her to know why I love her, when did I start loving her and how did we end up in this mess.

I just want her to know everything.

And what better way to do that than to take her from where it all started.