Ethan's POV
"I should get going... Mr Ruth decided to assign my class a 7000 word essay due tomorrow." Grayson sighs as he gets up to hug me but Kyle cleared his throat indicating to not get any closer.
Grayson sighed as he gave me a small smile turning away and walking towards the door.
"Grayson wait!" I raise my voice slightly making sure he can hear me from the table and chair I haven't moved from. "yeah?" he asked walking back over.
"Can.....can you give this to her?" I asked shaky as I reached down and held the folded drawing of her out for Grayson to grab. "What is it?" he asks as he holds it in his hand opening it. I watched as his eyes skimmed over the art work before resting on the bottom left corner.
The message.
It took me two hours to write, not because it was long but because I was trying my hardest show her how much I love her and how sorry I am.
I watched as my brothers facial features softened as his eyes moved across the writing.
Ashtyn,
I know you probably hate me, I know I promised I would call you everyday. I know.
I know 'sorry' won't make up for that and it probably won't make you feel any better but I am truely sorry.
I'm sorry I didn't call you.
I'm sorry I can't handle hearing your voice and not be able to hold you tightly.
I'm sorry I didn't put your name on the visitor list.
I'm sorry I can't be with you right now.
I'm sorry it ended up like this.
I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up.
I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
But
I'm not sorry for beating that piece of shit.
I'm not sorry that he got what he deserved.
It's my job to protect my best friend and my love.
I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you but I want you to be happy and right now I know I can't be there for you. You need someone and if that means moving on and loving someone else then maybe thats what you should do.
Maybe you should just forget about me, but I will never forget about you.
I will never forget my first love.
- Ethan
I felt tears prickle my vision as I thought of her and the things I wrote.
Grayson nodded before walking out through the double doors leaving me to be escorted back to the day room by Kyle.
