Where Have You Been All My Life

27|To Hold Him

"I'm sorry jaan...I'm so sorry..." He mumbled against her lips when she was completely into his half-conscious make out session, making her purse up her lips, opening her eyes wide and narrow it instantly in confusion.

"Raman...are you okay...? Aap...kuch chupa rahe ho mujhse...?" She asked cupping his face but he had his eyes tight shut as if panic about she may get what is in his heart through those expressive orbs.

"I'm feeling so much pain...here..." He managed feebly touching his chest where his heart resides and mallets against.

"Raman...you're puzzling me. Mujhe kuch...*sigh* leave it..." She shrugged off thinking he is being playful but deep down she knew he is not. He meant the agony.

He lied back comfortably with her on top of him. His hands gently stroked her waist as she nuzzled his neck and down to his throat, fondling his hair. Though tears did not cease, he breathed quiet. Looking at his grimaced face for few seconds, she kissed his heart where he has told to be having a severe pain. Her lips did magic that his lips curled up meekly.

"Are you feeling good now?" She inquired only to feel him dragging her nearer.

That was when Ruhi barged inside. Watching her mother lying on top of her father, the first thing came in Ruhi's mind was how her father would manage her weight. For her, her Ishima is a little too heavy for her father! Ruhi rushed to Ishita and drew her hand without telling her concern, as she knows if she says that, she would feel bad. She had heard how her father teases her with her weight and her not-so-cool responses.

"Ishimaaa...come with me...please nah...I'm sleepy...Papa is a big boy...he'll sleep himself..." Ruhi pulled Ishita's one hand and the other one was in Raman's captive as he squeezed it close to him.

"Arey Rooh...What happened...? Papa...Papa is feeling unwell. Let Ishima stay with him..." She tried to convince Ruhi while Raman's hold around her waist tightened.

"Mat jao...please..." He mumbled in his exhausted state making her look at him concernedly.

"Rooh bachcha...bas...Let Ishima take care of papa..." She said trying to turn completely towards Ruhi but Raman fastened his grip.

"Why are you lying over him? Papa won't be able to breathe if you do this mamma..." Ruhi finally blurted out her trouble.

Ishita's cheeks reddened instantly as she realized their position. It is good that it is Ruhi. Otherwise, she could not even think of the aftermath of others watching them like that. Moreover, the little girl's concern made her titter inwardly as she thought of the same. She has no explanation for her complaint as Raman always does this to make sure that she is close to him. In spite of all these, Ruhi successfully made her feel insecure regarding her weight.

"I've become fat, hai nah Raman...?"

"Thodi si...haan..."

She remembered their recent conversation that ignited her insecurities to a new extent. Therefore, she felt her weight would hurt Raman, like the little princess was thinking. How so simply she forgot all the logics and came into some conclusions that are never true! As Ishita wriggled, Raman's clasp tensed up making it difficult for her to move away.

"Don't leave me...Be like this..." He whispered giving her power to overcome her worries and press her completely over him.