Part ♥3

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Why am I feeling this way?

If it's like Jimin said, why I feel this longing to be close to her and touch her so badly and do even more then that even without doing anything but just from seeing her?

I can't detach my eyes from her sleeping state. I saw her lot of the time sleeping, but what I'm feeling right now is different, it's much different and stronger then any attraction I felt before toward any girl.

One mind tell me she is my mate and it's normal to feel that, but the fact that she is my little sister is the one keeping me in my place and retaining me from doing something I would regret later.

I want to get out and run far away, but my foot doesn't wanna move. Like my mind and body isn't one.

She was most likely waiting for me when she falls asleep. She usually come with her teddy bear if she decide to sleep here. I can't leave her alone now.

She can't sleep alone, or more precisely without something to hold at night.

Even though she portrait that strong attitude and like to be like us as she hang up just with guys, she get scared easily and multiple times she would come to my room when Jimin isn't there for her. She gets used to grab my arm to sleep but it would be a really big disaster if I get there with her with my current condition. Nevertheless I can't let her alone or she would wake up crying and would have nightmare again.

I get to her room and grab Shoo, her teddy bear that she sleeps with. No one knows of this little secret of her except for her brother, me and Jungkook. We never make fun of her for that or make remark about that because all three of us know the reason behind that and what she get throw. That get me to never judge anyone without knowing the reason behind why they do.

I put it next to her, turning quickly not trusting myself. Once near the door I turn, looking at her, unconscious and peaceful, I don't know if I would ever be with her like before and look at her innocently and not with sinful though.

Would everything be OK after this? would our treatment change? Would she hate me if she knows? Would everything be OK?

Thinking about all that and without any control over my own self I find myself returning near her. Even though I know that I shouldn't get even nearer to her, but I continue to take small steps toward her.

Once near her my heart started beating real fast, in an abnormal speed, like it want to get out of my chest.

Jimin face flash in front of me, with an expressing of trust, like he is right in front of me.

One phrase kept repeating in my head in his voice like he is the one saying it to me, making me regret even the steps I took towers her, and all the ill thought I was thinking about.

"You can't, she is still 15"

What was I thinking, she is younger than me with 3 years. Did I become a pervert or what!

I turn running to the door, dismissing any though that has to do with her and closing the door behind me, pressing my back against it, taking a breath.

If it's like this when she is asleep, how would it be like when she would be awake, looking at me with her brown eyes? Thinking about her eyes, remind me when they capture mine earlier and the connection I felt. I can't say that I hate it fully but I shouldn't love it either. It's wrong she is my sister; she is my sunshine, my little princess.

I need to stop thinking like that, it just aggravate my state.

With that in my mind, I get away from there and direct to Jimin's room.

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