(Gureshin) I wasn't made for him. He was made for me

Mahiru~2

「Guren's P.O.V」

Ever since the day I was born I knew I wasn't normal. Both of my parents disappeared mysteriously when I was born. My caretaker ended up leaving me once I was 13 and I knew how to take care of myself. I didn't know why, but everyone I loved seemed to leave me. It hurt, but I've grown used to it. The only way to abandon my burden was at school.

At school, my name spread and soon everyone knew who I was. Guren Ichinose. My life couldn't have been better. I finally belonged somewhere. The only problem was love. It wasn't like nobody liked me. Tons of girls fell for me. I had over 50 girlfriends. It was crazy, until I met Mahiru Hiragi. Everything fell into place when I met her. She was perfect. I never would have gotten to where I am now without her.

"Hello! My name is Mahiru Hiragi. It's nice to meet all of you." 

I was sitting at my desk when the teacher was taking role. When Mahiru's name was called she smiled at everyone and greeted them. For me, it was surprising. I hadn't seen her during middle school at all. She was sitting next to me during 1st period on the first day of 9th grade.

"Hello." She grinned at me. "Are you Guren?"

"Yeah, I am. Why do you ask?" I looked down at her. I could tell that she was different from other girls. She had a spark of excitement that other girls at our school didn't have. Not to mention, she was very pretty. I'm sure every boy wanted her as their girlfriend.

"Oh, nothing. I was just wondering if you wanted to be friends." Mahiru giggled and appeared to be examining me closely with her amber eyes.

"Friends? Hah, I already have lots of friends. But I guess I could add you on the list." I knew that she would be on the top of my  friend list from now on.

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【3 years before; 9th grade】

I was standing at my locker on a Monday morning. On my locker were a bunch of sticky notes with love messages. Ugh, it was so annoying when girls did this. I crumpled up the notes and threw them away. I didn't want Mahiru to see me reading the notes. In fact, I was waiting for her. She always came  about 15 minutes after me.

Finally, what seemed like years, she finally entered the building. I was about to go talk to her, when I saw that she was walking the halls with another boy. I suddenly felt a pang of jealously when I saw him. White snowy hair, crystal blue eyes, pale skin, and a frown that covered most of his face. He wasn't even that bad looking.

Was she going out with this guy?

The boy nodded to her and left to go find his locker. She waved to him cheerfully which made me even more upset. She approached me and smiled brightly at me.

"Hi Guren! I'm sorry I'm always late!" She apologized. "Is something wrong? You look upset?"

I couldn't even look at her.

"Who was the guy you were walking with? You're boyfriend?" I could feel my voice turning into a sneer as I said the word boyfriend. I wanted an answer from her.

She burst out laughing. I scowled. A group of girls turned to us. Jealousy was written all over their faces as they looked at Mahiru. Ever since I started hanging out with her, they've hated her. I told them to back off and eventually they did.

"Hey! What's so funny?!" I hissed.

"You're so silly Guren! The boy I was walking with was just my adopted brother, Shinya!" She explained, not being able to contain her laughter. "He always feels so insecure at this school so I try to cheer him up in the mornings! That's why I'm always a bit late everyday. I'm the only one that takes care of him."

As she told me this, I could feel warmth spread toward my cheeks. I felt humiliated thinking that her brother was her boyfriend.

"How come you never told me that you had a little brother?"

"I guess I just forgot to mention him. Most of my family don't pay attention to him. Sometimes I even forget that he exists!" She joked.

"Oh. So his name is Shinya, eh? Poor kid. How old is he?" I asked, thinking about Mahiru's brother.

"He's not that much younger than us actually. Just a few months. He's 15, almost 16 just like us!"

"Well that's good. You can check on him during breaks then." I didn't exactly care for her brother, but since she was concerned for him, I guess I could get to know him.

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The times I've seen Shinya, he's always alone, isolated in his own world. When I started dating Mahiru, she payed more attention to me and soon Shinya just became a loner that nobody liked.

He was like a pole. You wouldn't notice him until you've actually bonked into him. However, nobody wants to bonk into a pole. So we all just avoided the pole. The pole didn't even try to make an effort. No flag, no paint just metal. A piece of metal standing straight looking down upon the world with no expression. It was pointless to talk to a pole. It just stares at you blankly. Who the hell talks to a damn pole anyways? Nobody. Just nobody.

Shinya Hiragi, the boring, pointless pole.

I don't really pay attention the him, but usually during lunch time, I'll see him eating alone on the floor. Half the time he doesn't even eat his food. He just stares at it. It probably explains why he's so skinny and wimpy looking. Maybe he'll die soon. Who knows and who gives a crap?

One time, I caught him staring at me. He quickly glanced away when my eyes met his. That was the first time I ever saw emotion in his face. It was happy, almost like Mahiru. There was something else too. I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Perhaps love? When I looked back at his face, he was string at his paper, the expression he had, had was completely drawn off his face.

On the first day of 12th grade I was hoping that maybe Shinya would have some friends this year. He's alone all the time, it would make a person go insane if he had any social skills! But my hopes vanished once lunch came along and I saw him sitting alone again. He kept peering over at Mahiru and I. Maybe wondering if he should come over or not.

The lunch bell rang, and I got up to go throw the tests of uneaten food alway. Mahiru followed me. During lunch, Mahiru and I would sit down someplace quiet and talk. I know, LAME. It's true. But it's nice having quality time with your girlfriend without somebody interrupting you.

"So Guren, do you know what college you'll be going to?" Mahiru asked as we sat down on a bench underneath a tree, providing us with shade. I put my arm around her waist while she leaned on my shoulder.

"No not yet. What about you?" I wanted to go to the same college as Mahiru but she was going to some smart nerd school or whatever and I wasn't exactly smart enough to go to the same college as her. I got good grades but not as good as her.

"It depends. I've already gotten a few letters saying that I've been accepted. Guren, you should really make some plans."

"I know. I'm just not in the mood to think about going to a university yet. We've just begun 12th grade and I want to enjoy every minute I can get with you."

"Aww that's sweet." Mahiru smiled and kissed me on the cheek. She was about to same something when the loudspeaker clicked on.

"Shinya Hiragi and Guren Ichinose, please come to the office. Shinya Hirahi and Guren Ichinose." Then, it quickly turned off.

Shinya and I? What the hell?...

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Authors Note;

I'll try and post a chapter every weekend if that's okay! School sucks...

~Maya Nordin