(Gureshin) I wasn't made for him. He was made for me

Moving out~9

≪ Shinya's P.O.V ≫

I shivered a little as I looked down at the rolled up poster in my hand. I'll never forgive him. Not for what he did.

I sat down on my bed, setting the poster down beside me. Ever since the day our principal told me that Guren would tutor me, I had felt like I could accomplish anything. It gave me so much hope. Finally some light in my dark abyss I called life. Of course, whenever something good happens, something bad happens. Or maybe this is god's way of punishing people. Or it's possibly karma. You do something bad, you get punished. You do something good, you get rewarded. I didn't know what I did wrong, but I did.

I glanced back down at the poster. I could feel my heart thundering against my chest. Wiping my tears away and with trembling hands, I opened up the poster. A small letter feel out onto my lap. As I unrolled the poster, I felt tears come to my eyes again. He remembered.

The letter was hidden in a clean white envelope with the words, "I'm sorry." I grimaced a little. One thing I very much dislike was when people apologized. Saying sorry doesn't fix a room covered in spray paint. Without thinking twice, I tore open the envelope.

Shinya,

I want to apologize again for vandalizing your room. I know it won't fix anything, but the least I can do is apologize. I have realized my mistake and I feel incredibly guilty. In return I'll allow you to stay at my place for a few nights. I will pick you up if needed.

The reason why I'm deciding to do this is because I want us to stay friends. You may have the biggest room if you wish and I will cook meals for you. Anything you wish for is my command. However, following these terms, I only ask for your forgiveness and friendship.

Guren Ichinose

I swallowed nervously and held the paper so I was clutching it to my chest. I should go. Not because of Guren, but for myself. I deserve to live in his gigantic mansion in the biggest room.

Looking over at my mess of a closet, I started planning on what to pack. I walked over and spotted my old suitcase, laying forgotten beneath the tornado of clothes. Luckily, my closet wasn't covered in spray paint, otherwise I would have forced Guren to buy me new clothes. As I packed, I heard Mahiru coming up the stairs. She stopped at my door which was shut closed and locked. I hadn't talked to her since the day she took me out shopping.

"S-shinya?" Her voice sounded as if she had been crying.

"What?" I growled as I packed. I didn't want anymore of my sister's shit.

"I think Guren ended our relationship."

I paused before I continued to pack my belonings. He broke up with her. Guren Ichinose broke up with Mahiru Hiragi. I felt a smile creep onto my face. Mahiru deserved it. This was god's way of punishing her. I wanted to say something that would hurt her feelings, but all I could feel was satisfaction. Finally something bad had happened to Mahiru.

Before I could respond, Mahiru went back down stairs to do whatever. I quickly finished packing. The last few things I packed was the letter and the poster. Since I wasn't going to be here for awhile, I needed a white tiger. I looked in the mirror and realized how crappy I looked. I sighed and decided not to do anything about it. Why would Guren care? I hate him now anyways.

When Mahiru left to go over to Aoi's house and mourn her lose that she deserved, I went downstairs with my things. Without a second thought, I walked out the door and called Guren to pick me up.

As I waited, I watched as the sun went down. The clouds turned pink as the moon began coming out. I had always liked it better at night when the stars came out. Everything seemed like a dream and it felt like anything could come true. I breathed in the fresh night air when Guren's black Tesla arrived. I felt nervous again.

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As we pulled up in Guren's driveway, I suddenly felt a wave of exhaustion. I barely had any sleep the couple of nights after Guren and Kureto vandalized my room.

"Guren, I'm tired." I said randomly.

"You can go to sleep once we get inside."

I unbuckled my belt as Guren went to get my bag from the trunk. I followed him into his home and up the hundreds of stairs. He showed me the gigantic room with a king size bed in the middle. The bed was neatly made with blue and white sheets. Before Guren put my bag down, I crawled into bed.

"You're going to bed already?" Guren asked in surprise. "Do you need anything? Water? Something to eat?"

"Get me something warm." I yawned tiredly. "Warm milk and honey," A stupid grin covered ny face. I tried glaring at Guren to make myself more intimidating, but I couldn't. It looked more like a lopsided grin.

Guren nodded once and left the room.

For some reason the bed seemed uncomfortable. Maybe it was because I wasn't so used to a big bed. I covered my head with the sheets and tried curling up in a ball to make it feel smaller. I shivered, feeling weird. A few minutes passed and Guren came back with a mug full of warm milk and a spoon.

He came up to me and handed me the mug. I took it from him eagerly and drank from the cup until all the milk was gone. I handed it back to Guren who watched me curiously with his head tilted to the side.

"What made you want to come?" He asked. I felt my cheeks burn.

"Because I deserve to be here. You vandalized my room."

"Right. So are you coming back to school?"

With just the mention of school, depressing memories came back. I shook my head.

"Why?"

I shook my head again and covered myself with the blankets. I heard Guren's footsteps as he walked towards the doorway. He turned off the light and in an instant my room was shrouded in darkness. Before I could complain, I felt my eyelids droop and I drifted off to sleep.

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Authors Note:
Since I had time, here's the next chapter! I won't be updating for awhile since I'm entering a writing contest and I'll be focusing on that, but I promise if I have time, I will update!

Thanks again!

~Maya Nordin