the sea, heaven and everthing between [completed]

10. temporary goodbyes

Taxi cabs and busy streets, just like I remembered it. I was back in New York and I felt a part of me wanted to go back into the calm life of Sam, Gracie and the sea salt air. I had been living my own fantasy story in Rhode Island and now it was like I had been torn back to reality.

Going back to work wasn't the same anymore. Every time a little girl with blonde hair stepped into the pediatricians office, my heart always skipped a beat because somehow I thought it would be Gracie. This was reality and they were back in Boston continuing on with their lives while I was alone in New York continuing mine.

The day after I had been with Sam, we just enjoyed the last days together us three. It wasn't until my last day there, when I was lying in his arms, when we finally discussed what we were going do with the relationship.

My eyes trailed on our hands intertwined laying on my stomach. "What are we going to do?" I finally asked the dreaded question. "With us?"

I heard him sigh. "I'm willing to try long distance if you want to."

"Of course, it could work. We have all kinds of social media, it wouldn't be a problem," I said, trying to swallow the lump in my throat.

"Yeah, New York and Boston are not far away from each other. We could visit each other," he suggested.

"Mhm," I tried to say in a positive tone, but failed as my mind kept telling me that it wasn't going to be like it had been during this summer.

"Let me tell you," he started out. "Let's just enjoy this last night together before Gracie and I drop you off by the train station tomorrow. Okay?"

"Okay," I smiled as he gently kissed my knuckles.

Looking back at it made me smile slightly, I always felt a constant longing for them. When they dropped me off at the train station, it ended up with me crying because seeing the tears in Gracie's eyes was enough to trigger my own tears.

But somehow we made it work. Multiple Skype calls, flights for in between visits. It had been a bittersweet feeling though. Sam and Gracie weren't there after work for hugs, to share details of how my day went over dinner. But the feeling of seeing them again after weeks of talking through a computer screen was of pure absolute happiness.

That was until now. Exaggerating butterflies was flying around in my stomach. For the past weeks I had been working out with an agreement with my work when it came to a transfer and selling my apartment was no problem in the middle of Manhattan. Sam's mother was helping me with the surprise. They had no idea I was going to move permanently to Boston with them.

I was standing in middle of my living room, which was now empty expect for my moving boxes. Smiling big, the feeling was indescribable. Sam was expecting me to come to Boston as an ordinary visit, expect I would arrive a day earlier with all my stuff.

I hauled in a cab and told the driver to drive me up to the airport. Though it seems like the regular visit, I just couldn't believe I was finally make the big step. Many months ago, I was the heartbroken girl who almost lost all hope for love-- but all of that was until I met Sam during a summer filled with sea salt air, sand, summer breezes and healing love.

When the plane finally landed, everything seemed to slow down. My baggage arrived later after a never ending wait. In the busy streets, a cab barely had the time to stop for me. Little me who was going to do something she never expected so soon. When I at last arrived at the apartment complex Sam and Gracie lived in, the butterflies in my stomach was going wild.

I stood in front of their door. This was the time they would be having dinner. And just to my luck, the door was unlocked.

I opened the door. "I would advise you guys to lock it more often. You could never know what kind of people that would break in," I joked, making my way into the hallway.

"Lia!" Gracie squealed and jumped from her chair and into my arms.

Sam stood there surprised. "I thought you were coming by tomorrow."

"A small change of plans," I shrugged casually and he looked confused. "I am staying here for good."

His eyes widened ever so slightly with happiness. "For good?"

"For good," I smiled, embracing in his arms, Gracie joining our beloved hug.

No one could tell me what the future hold of, whether it was positive or negative. All I knew that the girl I was many months ago had learned different things. 1. The world doesn't end after broken heart. 2. Two broken pieces can come together as one. And lastly 3. There is a lot of find by the sea, heaven and everything between.