Happy // j.hs

t w e n t y - t w o

*you've all been waiting for this update probably and I just haven't been able to write it until now. please keep giving this story lot's of love xx -em*

The look on Yoongi's face as I told him everything was even more heartbreaking than the things I had to confess about. We sit on the bed, cross legged, facing one another. As I tell him about Taehyung he starts to cry, not a sob, not a silent shedding of tears but a shaking fit of endless tears and sniffs, the cries of someone utterly heartbroken.

"Why didn't you tell me Hoseok? I can help, I could have helped!" He sighs through his tears, bringing his hand up to his nose, wiping away the snot which was forming. I'm too ashamed to look him in the eyes. He seems nothing but genuine which is why I can't, I don't want to to se the hurt and disappointment in his eyes.

"I couldn't.. I shouldn't have" I say. Even though I'm not looking at him I can feel him sit up, his atmosphere changing as the words came out my mouth.

"What do you mean by that? I care for you so much and all you do is keep hiding this shit from me? Hoseok, I'm here to help you!" He yells. I stay sitting with my head down, staring at the sheets beneath us.

"Look at me!" He cries in front of me, but I just can't bring myself to. The next thing I feel is not heartache, not guilt, but a hard slap across my cheek. I raise my head slowly meeting Yoongi's tear stained face, my hand drifting to the red mark forming on my skin.

"Why won't you even look at me?" He sniffs.

"It hurts too much" I say, looking straight into his eyes.

"It hurts you too much to look at me? Alright" He says, his demeanour changing almost instantly. He jumps from the bed and opens the bedroom door. 

"Get out" He says simply.

"What.." I say, not believing the words that came out of his mouth.

"I said get out" He says with more force, his voice louder than before. I walk over to him, counting the footsteps as though they'll be my last as I press my lips against his, trying to mend his feelings. 

"I'm sorry" I whisper.

He pushes me hard away from him and into the side of the door. He looks at me; his eyes furious but as he looks at my weak and exhausted body pressed against the wood something changes. He's on me in seconds, his mouth working over the skin by my chin all the way down to my collar bones. He kisses me deeply on the lips, biting and sucking hard on my bottom lip. I feel tears fall down his cheeks as he mumbles "Sorry" over and over. His lips slow down and his movements become more relaxed as he wraps his arms around me, hugging me tight.

"Hoseok, please promise to tell me everything from now on"

"I can't bear to see you hurting" He says. All I can do is nod my head and make a soft grunt as silent tears crawl down my own cheeks. 

"Let's go to bed yeah?" He asks as he takes my hand in his, pulling back the bed covers.

As I nuzzle against his chest and start to drift slowly off to sleep, Yoongi brings his lips down to my ear, kissing the lob and skin around it. He wipes the tears from my cheeks and strokes the slap mark that is now fading away slowly.

"I love you Jung Hoseok"