My Famous Dad. (Pierce The Veil fan fiction)

Chapter Seventeen

A/N: My Songs:

Hospital For Souls-Bring Me The Horizon

So Sick-Kurt Schneider

Bulls In The Bronx-Pierce The Veil

Lacy

Month later

I lay in bed, scrolling through Tumblr. My whole dash is covered in pictures of self harm, bringing on the urge bad. I look at the picture of Luke and I on my bedside table, smiling and happy. That was before tour. Now I'm back to depressed and pushing people away.

I lock my phone, grabbing the pen and notepad, starting to write. When I finish my note, I stand up feeling my heart drop as I look at the rope across my room.

I've had this planned. I knew exactly when I was going to do it and how, and where. I've wanted nothing more than to leave this world. My life is going to shit.

Dad doesn't care anymore. He can't look at me the same. Not but three hours ago he was yelling at me for spilling my drink. He's gone back to his old way and I can't deal with it anymore. I need to leave. He'd be happier without me.

Jaime has gotten a girlfriend and forgot about me. I expected this to happen. He'd notice me for just a short amount of time then leave me. All he does now is turn down my requests to watch movies together or me come spend a night with him. He says he's with his girlfriend and they're busy together.

Mike's never really taken to me. He doesn't know how to deal with me. Hell, he asked me if I was over my "phase" yesterday. He doesn't ever try to interact with me and he's never once showed interest in me.

Tony. Gosh, things with Tony is weird. He tries looking after me but messes it up. He doesn't understand me like Jaime, dad, and Luke do. He doesn't understand how I don't need to be left alone for an entire night while he goes to drink with some friends.

Luke has let me push him away. He barely comes around anymore. He doesn't text or call me anymore. He's basically left me. He said he'd always be here for me and love me. Is he doing any of that? Hell no.

Ashley hasn't talked to me in days. I don't know what I did but we haven't talked in almost three weeks. She's stopped contacting me and we haven't talked. I miss her, I need her but she's not here.

I'm ready to leave. I'm ready to be happy somewhere else. I don't want to live anymore, I can't. I physically can't live anymore. I have no reason to live so, why the hell not?

It's not like I'll be missed. Go ahead, tell me I'll be missed. It's all bullshit in my head. Go ahead and tell me I have no reason to be scared. Bull fucking shit, I have a reason to be scared. You have no damn right telling me I don't have a reason to be scared.

I'm done with the world and I'm done living. Just let me die. Let me leave. The voice in my head wants me happy and I believe him I'll be happy where I'm going. I want to leave.

You know, death isn't scary anymore. It's just me sleeping for eternity. I like to sleep, so why the hell not? I'd be happier asleep. Hopefully, I won't wake up and have to live in this hell hole anymore.

I walk over, grabbing the rope and throwing one end across my fan. I tie a knot, making a quick noose and taking one last glance around my room. Before I go, I want to go walk around.

I leave my room, heading downstairs where I know dad is passed out. I see him on the couch with the tv still on. I walk over, holding back my sobs, as I lean down kissing his cheek.

"I love you. Goodbye daddy." I whisper, pulling back and nearly sobbing. I turn around and head back upstairs. I walk into his room, rummaging in his drawers before finding it.

I strip down, sliding his favourite shirt on, and heading back to my room. I grab the chair from my desk, placing it just under the rope and climbing on top of it. I slide the noose around my neck and tighten it.

"And if I mean anything to you, I'm sorry, but I've made up my mind." I sing softly before letting the chair fall backwards and the rope tightening around my neck even more.

All oxygen gets cut off from my brain, my vision starting to go blurry as I start wheezing. I relax my body, letting darkness take over soon.

I'd never have to live again.

A/N: Yes. That happened. And if you can tell me the name of the song to the lyrics she sang, we will be forever best friends! Love you guys and hope you had a Happy Thansgiving!

~Caitlin:)