Attack on Titan One Shots

Levi x Reader : Answer

This is the sequel(?) to "Levi x Reader : Missed Calls." I never thought I would write another one shot like this LOLOLOL. I want to show you guys Levi's point of view in his relationship with the reader because "Missed Calls" was only one-sided.
Note: the texts in italics are Levi's thoughts.

On the day [Y/N] and I broke up, I was so shocked and speechless; I could barely move move an inch from my seat.  It was hard for me to watch and listen to them cry out in anger because I was too busy thinking about how shitty I was as a shitty significant other and a shitty human being.  I hoped [Y/N] received my voicemail.  I wanted to tell them how much I truly loved them and how I was sorry for being a terrible person.  They had every right to hate me.

Truth is, work had been so hectic to the point where I was always so goddamn tired.  I mean, look at the dark circles under my eyes.  But before we broke up, every time I saw [Y/N], it felt like as if they made my day ten times better, you know?  Hearing their calm voice and laughter were like music to my ears; I didn't want to ruin any of those moments by interrupting them.  Watching them get excited over weird things was kind of soothing, too.  But of course, they all slipped away.  I lost my everything.

The house phone rang.  A part of me prayed that it was [Y/N] calling... A part of me didn't.

I picked up.

"Hello?" The nostalgic voice asked.

I couldn't believe it was actually them.

"[Y/N]?"

"Hey," they paused, "I got your call. Is everything okay?"

Nothing was ever okay.  I lost them.

"No, actually... I just wanted to apologize and set a proper closure." 

A proper closure?  Seriously?  What was I thinking..?

"What proper closure? You've been shutting me out when we were together this whole time. That's already closure." 

They were right.  It looked like I was shutting them out, huh?  Believe me, I was never ignoring them; I really enjoyed their presence.

I sighed, "I'm sorry—I'm sorry for being the absolute terrible significant other in the world. I don't think it'll be easy to make it up to you, huh?"

Trust me, it will never be easy.

"I don't think it was easy for you to put in any effort into our past relationship," [Y/N] angrily responded.

"You're right," I cleared my throat, "I'm sorry for wasting your time, [Y/N]."

Honestly, no matter how much I loved them, they would be better off without me.

They said in surprise, "Are you actually apologizing for real?"

They had no idea how hard it was for me to drop the L-bomb; I was a nervous wreck.

"Yeah. I regret not giving you anything back and I still feel awful... I hated myself for that, you know?"

"Been there, done that," they said.  That felt like a stab in the back.

"I still wonder, [Y/N], what drew you to being interested in me?" I asked.

Why would a person like [Y/N] become so interested in a dreadful person like me?  They deserved better.

"You were mysterious, that's all," they said. 

Mysterious?  That was a first.

[Y/N] added, "I also admired your dedication to your job and saving humanity... You rarely find those kind of people here," they laughed.

"Ah, I see." 

I still cannot believe they were that interested in me.

"How about you, Levi? What made you to take me out on those dinner dates?"

"Your uniqueness, definitely. You stood out, too, you know?"

They were one of a kind, but they were just more than that.  They filled something in my heart.

"Right..."

This conversation was definitely not where I thought it'd be.  I didn't know what else to say next.

"Look, [Y/N]," I paused for a moment to think, "we should just end this here. This is hard for me to process."

"O-okay..?" They replied in confusion.

I closed my eyes, "Good bye, [Y/N]." 

No, I'm sorry.

"Bye..."

Wait.

Before I was going to say something, [Y/N] had to be the first to hang up...  That somewhat hit me hard.  I wanted to drop the L-bomb before they hung up, but I guessed things would've ended differently if they heard me say that.

"I love you," I said to the silence before I pressed the end button.