My Transgender Diary

September 13, 2016

So you know how sometimes when you meet someone new and they are just so amazing that you start falling for them. Well I do a lot but this time.... I got his number because I was getting all of my new friends numbers. But I'm scared to text him because I think I'll be awkward and say something weird that will make him leave. He is so adorable. When I met him he was so nice and made me feel so comfortable even though I just met the group. I just fell and I fell fast. I finally hit the floor. I came to my senses. He's bisexual so he won't date transgender. It breaks my heart thinking about it. It makes me just want to stay a girl so maybe he will like me. That would make life even harder but I really like him. I just want to hug him and him hug me back and tell me it will be ok like at the game. So I was falling, hit the floor, now I'm hurt. Welp that's my life. I know he's gonna friendzoned me like everyone else. It wont be the first time I'll be let down. It's okay I didn't need my heart. Me and a friend made a ship name even though I know it won't happen. Staniel. His one friend that is my friend keeps telling me to text him. I'm too scared. I saw him walking to the bus in front of mine... Maybe I could walk with his friend and I'll see him... But I'm not gonna tell him. I just can't. He is just so adorable?? Thanks for reading.