BTS: I Think I Love You

Chapter 24

It's been exactly three months since they found out. Since they stuck by my side in the nurse's office after I fainted. They haven't left my side since, protecting me like I was their younger sister. They have always been by my side, never letting anyone come near me with the intension to hurt me. Even Tom has left me alone, resorting to glaring heatedly whenever they intervene.

No one has touched or spoken to me inappropriately in the three months they have been friends with me. It's a relief to not have to worry about how hurt and soar I am going to feel at the end of the day. I have also been smiling a lot more. These boys have cracked my protective shell, allowing me to be the girl I used to be.

I have also realized something myself. It is getting harder and harder to deny my feelings for Jungkook. He was the first one at this school to be nice to me, the first one to smile at me wholeheartedly. I am in love with him, and I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell him in fear that he won't like me back. I won't mind, but it could make things incredibly awkward between us. We have been getting insanely close lately, and I don't want that to change.

I sit down in my seat for first period, waving at the boys as they greet me cheerfully.

"Hey guys! You almost ready for Halloween tomorrow?" I ask, my face practically glowing in excitement. I have never celebrated Halloween, so this is really new to me. I can't wait to spend it with my friends. Jungkook laughs aloud from the seat next to mine, slinging his arm over my shoulder casually.

"Of course! You were with us when we bought our costumes Zay."

I can't help the faint blush that appears on my cheeks due to his closeness, a smile creeping its way onto my face. That's true, I was with them. I just couldn't help it.

"What are you going as?" Yoongi asks, his head resting on the desk in front of him. I lean forward in Jungkook's embrace to look at the sleepy guy, my chest resting on the cool desk in front of me as well.

"I'm not gunna tell you" I say in a sing-song voice. I laugh as they all grumble about how I'm not being fair and should tell them seeing as I already know what they are going as. I have decided to step out of my shell a little bit for the party they convinced me to go to after school tomorrow. I don't usually like drawing attention to myself, but I guess I can make an exception. Halloween is a time where you can pretend to be something you aren't.

The bell rings and we stop talking, facing forward to listen as our teacher begins her lesson. I immediately zone out, not able to concentrate due to her monotone voice. I am snapped out of my daze by a gentle tap on my shoulder, suddenly alert and curious. I glance over at Jungkook as he smiles at me, my eyes then moving down to my desk where he placed a piece of paper. I carefully unfold it, his writing neat and slightly crooked on the page.

You look beautiful today

I blush bright red, hiding my cheeks underneath my hands. I can hear him as he lightly chuckles at my reaction, nudging the pencil beside me indicating that I should write back.

So are you saying that I have looked ugly every other day Kookie?

He chuckles at my remark, pushing me playfully in response. He passes it back again with a slight shake of his head, and amused smile on his handsome face.

Yah! Stop playing around Zay. You are beautiful every day ❤️

The bell rings indicating that it is the end of class before I have a chance to reply to him. The others stand and we make our way out of the classroom towards the cafeteria as a group.

"Hey Z, why is your face all red?" Tae asks while wrapping his arm around my waist. I blush even harder at his observation when the others turn to look at me inquisitively as well.

"It was probably something Jungkookie said" Jimin states while laughing and moving out of the way as the boy mentioned makes a swing for his stomach. A faint blush appears on his cheeks as they tease the two of us, his head hung low to try and hide the smile taking over his face. I feel sorry for him. He's probably really tired of the guys asking if we like each other. I know what my feelings are, but he doesn't feel the same way. He is just being friendly, considering he knows how much their presence means to me.

I am upset that he doesn't like me the way I like him though. He is the sunshine in the midst of a stormy day. He is the reason I can keep smiling as largely and frequently as I do now. I would do anything for him, and I just wish that he felt the same way. It's ok though. Just being with him is enough to make me happy. Seeing him smile makes my day. When he gets a girlfriend I will be heartbroken, but I will also be happy to see him so in love.

Even if it's not with me.