BTS: I Think I Love You

chapter 5

I walk to school, the cold wind attempting to lift up my skirt. I try to keep my heavy eyes open, the wind blowing into them not helping my situation. I didn't get any sleep at all last night. My next door neighbors were throwing another party so I was subjected to laying in bed with a pillow over my ears. Not like that worked.

I walk to my first class and sit down. I'm scared about what the new guys might say. When people find out about what happens to me, they usually verbally abuse me. I'm hoping these guys will just ignore me like some of the nicer students do. That would make my life a whole lot easier.

The bell rings and the students start to file into the classroom. The room grows louder as some people come in twos and threes. I see a group of seven walk towards me and immediately pretend that I am busy. I take out my subject folder and place it on my desk. It is around this time that I realize that no one is talking around me. That's odd. I could haven sworn I saw them walk over here.

I chance a look to the side and my eyes widen in shock. Seven pairs of eyes are staring at me from the desks right beside me. I stare at the eyes of Suga, who decided to sit next to me today. It was probably because everyone else was too disgusted to take the seat there.

"Hey" he says with an expressionless face. I just blink in response, not sure what he wants from me. He saw what I was doing yesterday. He was absolutely shocked about it. Why would he want to initiate conversation with someone who got fucked in a public restroom?

Before I can even think about what to answer him with, a long shadow falls onto my desk. I look up and see that it is Koo-yeon, one of Tom's friends. He smirks down at me as I strain my neck to look up at him. He leans down so that his mouth is by my ear before speaking.

"I get you today. You better be ready."

His finger trails down my neck and down my chest, into the small amount of cleavage that is displayed because of uniform. He smirks at me once more before kissing me on the jaw and walking over to his friend. I hear Suga's scoff of disbelief as I wipe the saliva off my face and look over at him. They are all looking at me as if I was the scum they found on the bottom of their shoes. As if I was a piece of melted bubblegum that they accidentally sat on. In a sense, I am.

"So what I saw was right?" he asks while crossing his arms. I don't want to lie to him, so I simply nod my head as conformation.

"Did he fuck you in the bathroom? Did you ride him like the little slut you are? Is that why you were being distant and playing so hard to get with us? Do you wanna have your way with us too?"

I don't respond, already used to the way everyone talks to me around here. It obviously hurts to have everybody think of me in such a degrading way, but I can only blame myself for this. I didn't try hard enough. I didn't fight as hard as I should have. I wasn't strong enough to avoid being in this situation. Its all my fault.

"Suga! I can't believe you would say something like that!"

Jin looks at Suga with a disapproving look on his face. The others look as if what he said was a little harsh as well. I did deserve it though. I can't let them yell at their friend for something he said to me if it is true.

"It's ok, he's not wrong. It's ok with me if he wants to yell at me. It is also ok with me if he wants to call me rude names. Everything he said was true, so I don't think that he is out of line."

With that said, I turn back to my work. They have no opportunity to speak to me, considering that the teacher just walked in with her books in her hands.

"Good morning class" she says cheerfully. We answer back and are finally able to sit back down in our seats.

"We are going to be doing a group activity today."

Nearly everyone in the class groans in annoyance, including me. I hate group projects. The guys just use that as an opportunity for them to be able to have sex with me after school as well as during it.

"You will be picking one person in your group from the row you are sitting in, then I will be picking the other one for you."

That's new. she's never done that before.

Everyone goes around and talks with the people around them to choose their first partner. I just sit where I am as I watch friends look at each other and grin in excitement. I don't have anyone that likes me in my row. Maybe if the New guys hadn't found out for a while. I would have at least been asked to join a group instead of being assigned to one later.

"Now, who doesn't have a partner?" the teacher asks. She is already looking at me before I even have the chance to lift my hand into the air. She's used to me not having any friends or a partner for activities like this. Her keen eyes scan the classroom before they land on someone sitting near me in the back.

"Miss Z, you will be partnered with Kim Namjoon and miss Lee."

Aish. Lee Aisoo.

She hates me the most out of all of the students in this forsaken school. She and Tom used to date. They actually went out for three years before I transfered to this school. Tom immediately became interested in me. Not the way guys feel when they think a girl is cute and wants to go out with them. No. Tom was interested in how much pain I could handle before I cried out. Wanted to know how much torture I could take before he broke me.

He broke up with her in order to be able to use me. To abuse me physically and mentally. Understandably, she hates my guts. She has made it her mission to make school even more of a hell than it already was. And now I'm partnered up with her and another guy who probably hates me now as well.

Why did it have to be him? Why did it have to be her?

Why does my life have to be so messed up?