BTS: I Think I Love You

Chapter 28

I'm shivering. It got really cold while I was waiting here for Jungkook. I check my phone one last time before sighing, the illuminated numbers glowing back at me as if they were taunting me silently. The time reads 6:45, three hours after the time Jungkook said he would meet me. I am sitting out in the freezing cold waiting for someone who isn't coming.

I didn't want to leave just in case he came late and didn't see me there. He would have thought that I had gotten impatient. What if he had thought that I thought I was too good to wait for him? I don't want to hurt his feelings, so I decided to stay for a little longer. I had originally said I would wait for an hour, but then I ended up staying even longer.

I feel dejected and sad, but he probably has a valid reason for not showing up. I don't blame him. What if something bad happened? I should text him to find out. I tap on his name in my contacts and send him a quick text, my palms sweaty.

To: Kookie🍪
Hey, where are you? Is everything ok?

I get a text notification almost immediately, my eyes lighting up due to the light emitting from the screen.

From: Kookie🍪
Sorry. I forgot.

To: Kookie🍪
Oh ok. Maybe next time.....

From: Kookie🍪
Mhmm

My eyes water as I stand up and make my way home, trying hard not to let the tears fall. I had been really looking forward to meeting up with Jungkook today. I had hoped that he was as excited as I was, but apparently not.

Next week

I walk into class, going towards my seat in the back. I smile and wave at the guys as I sit down, placing my stuff on my desk.

"Hey guys! How was your weekend?"

I look over when I don't hear anything, one of my eyebrows raised inquisitively. They aren't even looking at me, their gazes on the desks in front of them. Taehyung and Yoongi are the only ones to glance up when I speak to them, their eyes holding hurt and sadness. I frown as they look back down, obviously ignoring me for some reason.

"Guys what's wrong? What happened?"

"You happened!"

I stumble back in shock at Jungkook's outburst, feeling scared and surprised. He has never yelled at me before. I stare at him with wide eyes as he sits on the other side of Jin in the farthest seat away from me. What did I do?

They have been ignoring me all day today. I honestly have no idea what I did for them to act like this with me, but I'm going to find out. I pack up my stuff as the bell rings for lunch, silently following the guys as they head up to our spot on the roof. We had claimed it as our own a while back to escape from all of the other students at this school. I gently open the door, stepping out and into the open space. The wind blows my hair in my face as they turn around to stare at me, their faces holding sadness and disbelief.

"What are you doing here?" Hoseok asks, glancing at Jungkook as he crosses his arms. I take a step forward, confusion coloring my face.

"Where else would I go?"

I hear a scoff coming from my side, turning to look at an agitated Jin.

"How about you go sit with your boyfriend?"

My boyfriend? I don't have a boyfriend. I have never had a boyfriend. I continue to have a confused expression on my face as they all glare accusingly at me.

"Don't play all innocent Z! I saw you with Tom on Friday!"

I stare at Jungkook incredulously, not believing my ears. He saw. Jungkook saw. But why? He was supposed to go to his meeting the whole hour. How did he see us?

"H-how did you-?"

His loud laughter cuts me off, the sound unnaturally crewel.

"I decide not to go to the meeting because I felt bad leaving you outside all alone for an hour. I got this crazy idea in my mind that we could go early and just hang out, but no. I walk up and see you shoving your tongue down some guy's throat. I leave, thinking you have better things to do, and then you have the audacity to ask me if I was still coming. Did you lie about Tom not being your boyfriend? Did you lie about being abused? Were you lying this whole fucking time?"

My eyes start to water as he continues to glare relentlessly at me.

"I-it was a misunderstanding, I swear! It wasn't what it looked like!"

He turns his face away from me, a scowl etched onto his face. I step forward in desperation, grabbing onto his arm softly.

"J-Jungkook, I didn't lie. You have to believe me!"

I stumble back as he practically throws me off of him, a sneer on his once-caring face. I steady myself and stand up from falling on to the hard ground, the bottoms of both of my hands scraped mildly. His eyes hold no remorse as I look up at him tearily, them holding nothing but disgust and repulsion. His voice is low and oddly calm when he speaks next, his final words causing the tears to stream down my face in uncontrollable rivers.

"I am honestly disgusted. I had been so nice to you. I hadn't called you names or beat you, like you had claimed everyone at this school did. If they were really that bad, why haven't you been getting hurt lately? I give you all of my time and effort for you to lie to me about getting abused. Don't talk to us during class anymore. I'll ask the teacher to move your seat. Don't talk to me. Don't look at me. Don't even think about me. I never want to be associated with you again. You lost my trust, and my friendship."

I run down the stairs sobbing, not stopping until I reach the men's restroom, where this all started. I curl up in a corner as I sob my eyes out, not wanting to believe what just happened. It was all a misunderstanding. Tom just had to ask for a kiss. Jungkook just had to be there at the wrong time. It's all my fault. If I hadn't agreed then they wouldn't all hate me right now. I wouldn't be in the men's restroom crying. I wouldn't feel empty inside. Congratulations Tom, you got what you always wanted.

I'm broken.