ParkBomb94 ~ Battle wounds

Chapter 8 | I Love Him

H's P.O.V

I woke up in the middle of the night. Parker lied almost on top of me with his head on my shoulder his hand rested on my chest under my shirt and his legs were intertwined with mine. I don't remember how we got like this but I wont move. I'll let him sleep he's had a long day and needs his rest. I wrapped my arm around him and tried to fall back asleep. I couldn't fall asleep. I have the man I love in my arms and he's not even sure if he's gay. If only he knew how much I love him, how perfect we could be together. Things are going to be awkward tomorrow when he wakes up. I could just move now so that it wouldn't be awkward but what if he wakes up then what do I say? No, I'll just enjoy the moment while it lasts and see where it leads us in the morning. If things are awkward between us the whatever we'll get over it. I kissed the top of his forehead lightly and after a few minutes fell asleep.

Parker's P.O.V

I woke up it was the next morning. H had his arm around me and my head was on his chest, my hand was on his stomach under his shirt. WTF? When did this happen? I have to say I didn't completely hate this. I mean IF i were to like another man H wouldn't be too bad. I did enjoy being so close to someone like this. I felt H move slightly from under me. He must have just woken up and is trying not to wake me. I closed my eyes and pretended I was asleep. He lifted me up from off of him and carefully put me on the bed next to him. I could feel his muscles. I opened my eyes slightly to see what he was doing. He was sitting in front of me on the bed looking at me. He didn't notice my eyes were slightly open. 

Parker are you awake? He whispered

I didn't move, I wanted to see what he would do. 

Okay, good. There is something I've been wanting to tell you but I've been too scared of how you would react to tell you so i'll just practice now while your asleep I just hope I have enough courage to tell you later today when you not sleeping. Parker, last night I woke up in the middle of the night your head was rested on my shoulder and our legs were intertwined. I liked that no, I loved that and well, I guess I l-love you. I know you have been hurt in relationships in the past but I wouldn't do that. How do you know well because you wouldn't only be my boyfriend, you would be my best friend. Parker underscore Games, I love you.

Wait what? H likes me? I thought. Why I don't even like me why does he? I should just open my eyes and say I love you to HBomb94 yea! I should do that. I chickened out. God damn I'm a wimp.... My eyes were completely closed now, I was disappointed in myself for not saying I love you to H. I felt H move but I couldn't tell what he was doing, then all of a sudden I felt warm breath against my face followed by H's lips meeting mine. It felt so good I couldn't help but kiss back. Wait what am I doing, I'm making out with someone who thinks I'm asleep because I am too chicken to tell him I love him... I love him? Do i really love him? H interrupted my thoughts by breaking our kiss. I still pretended to be asleep. I heard him leave the room saying SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

I opened my eyes and lied there thinking about just happened. Why were we laying like that together? Did he realize I was awake? Why did he leave? How long has H liked me? Am I gay? Do I love him? I decided I needed to think about something else for now. I got my phone and checked to see if I had any texts. I got one from Graser asking if I wanted to record some Mineplex. I responded saying I would later today. I got one text from Rusher

Did you tell anyone about us?

I shivered at the word us remembering what had happened.

No. I responded.

I saw he was typing and waited for him to respond.

What about H?

No, I swear.

Good, I'll text you soon.

I hope not I thought. 

I got a twitter notification @HBomb94 has mentioned you in a post. Oh god I hope he didn't say anything about what he said or about us or last night. No he wouldn't, not so that the fans would see. I tapped the notification. 

@Parker_Games are you up yet?

I was relived it was only that 

@HBomb94 No

@Parker_Games Come to the kitchen I made breakfast.

@HBomb94 ooooo what is it?

@Parker_Games If you come here you will find out.

@HBomb94 Nah I'm too lazy.

@Parker_Games Would you like me to carry you to the kitchen?

@HBomb94 Yes please Mr. HBomb.

I heard him walk down stairs to the bedroom. He opened the door. 

Your lazy. H said when he saw me.

I know. So your gunna carry me right?

If you don't mind the possibility of being dropped.

Hey I'm not that heavy. 

He came over to me and picked me up bridal style. I wrapped my arm around his neck.

What did you do that for? He asked.

If you drop me then your coming down with me. 

He laughed. After we got upstairs we had to go through the living room to get to the kitchen but instead of going through the living room H dropped me on the couch. I was holding on to him tight enough so that when he dropped me I pulled him down too.

See. And that's why you shouldn't have dropped me. I said

Yea, but now I can do this.

He held my hands above my head with one hand and with the other he tickled me.

What? No. That's not fair. 

I tried to free my hands but failed. He was sitting on my hips so I couldn't escape. He continued to tickle me.

H p-please.

Fine. He said. Still not releasing my hands.

He took a deep breath in and said

Parker, last ni...

*Ding* I got a text. We looked at each other 

It can wait. I said.

No, its okay. He let go of my hands and got off of me. 

I checked my phone, the text was from Rusher

Come by my place in 30 or else I'll tell.

I must have looked nervous because H said

Everything okay?

Yea its just uhh Graser he want to record. I told him I would in a little bit. I should go to the grocery store were running out of uhhh milk.

Okay. Do you want me to come with you? H asked

N-NO I can-I can go alone.

Okay call me if you need anything. He said

Okay.