ParkBomb94 ~ Battle wounds

Chapter 3 | Dear Haters

Listen to the music while you read this. Read this in a depressing tone. It will set the mood.

Parker's P.O.V

*TIME SKIP TO OFF THE PLAIN ON UBER*

I got in the uber and told the driver h's address. He said it was going to be about a 30 minute drive to his house. I decided to tweet something about going to h's place so I could interact with fans a little. Going to @HBomb94 place to stay with him for a while. #ParkBomb94???  The fans went crazy in the comments. I like to scroll through them. They make me happy, well the good ones do at least, I've been getting more and more hate lately. I'm assuming its because I haven't been uploading a lot, and that's really not my fault though I just have be un-motivated lately. Most of the responses are positive and nice but not all of them are i'd say about 30% of them are hate. 

@CubberLuvver says: Wait, is #Parkbomb for real?

I debated weather I should reply or not seeing as my dream on the plain really caught me off guard. I don't know if those feelings are real or if they were just a dream nothing more. No! What am I thinking i'm not gay. This must be a mistake. Of course its just a dream. It couldn't be any more than a dream there's no way. All my life that's what I've been taught, if I were gay it would go against my family's beliefs. They would never speak to me again. My dad might hit me again. I rubbed my hand over last weeks bruises from when my dad found out one of my friends were gay. He said I should never hangout with those kinds of people ever again because it is a sin. Good thing my family doesn't watch my videos, I don't want them to know that I joke about saying I love you to another man. Then they would really never speak to me again. Even if in that dream I was happy it wouldn't be worth loosing my family, they could never except me. 

@CubeHat3r219 says: fag

@CubberLuvver says: +CubeHat3r219 Please don't hate on him. So what if he is gay why should you care? Even if you don't believe in LGBT keep it to yourself you don't need to bring other people down because of what you think.

@CubeHat3r219 says: +CubberLuvver Your wrong. Parker, H u and anyone else that is gay or supports gays are disgusting. Parker deserves to be called a worthless fag because that's what he is. I hope he and every other fag on the world kills themselves. 

I don't like to delete or block hate comment partially because it makes me feel like i'm hiding other peoples thoughts and opinions but also because the fans talk to the haters and usually change their opinion on me. It's nice to see that CuberLuvver is sticking up for me but I don't think in this case he/she will be changing the haters opinion.

@Cuberluvver says: +CubeHat3r219 You don't really mean that. Your just over reacting. Everyone deserves to live, no one should kill themselves. Please stop using that word, its mean. +ParkerGames is the one of the nicest people ever. I meet him at Pax a few years ago. I talked to him about my depression and my panic attacks and how watching his videos always made me feel better. I told him about how I used to self harm everyday but watching his videos made me regret any pain I caused myself and eventually I stopped entirely because of his videos. I told him that his videos saved my life. So I hope you change your mind about him. I hope you watch his videos and instead of giving him hate you laugh and see him how I see him, a life saver. 

I stopped reading their conversation after that. I didn't care to hear what CubeHater had to say next. 

How long until we get there? I asked the uber driver.

About 2 minutes. He said.

I thought about what CubberLuvver said. I remember meeting her at Pax and thinking about how I see myself in her. As I was thinking I rubbed my scars lightly. I don't want H to find out about them. Good thing I brought plenty of long sleeves lets just hope he doesn't question me.