Jamie's POV
I guess I fell asleep on Nialls couch. His mom was really sweet. I tried my best to cover the bruise and act as if I'm fine but I couldn't stop replaying the harsh look Harry gave to me as he hurt me. That still stick. My Harry hurt me. The one I love so much and would do anything for, betrayed me and hurt me.
I heard the door open and Avery's voice "where's Jamie?" She asks as I hear Nialls mom answer. Soon I see Avery rushing over to me "what happened?" She asked and here comes the tears again. "Harry, hurt, me,and I have a bruise" I say with my voice starting to strain from replaying the awful sight. "I swear I'll teach that boy a lesson! Where is he? He should know he can't just bust out of no where and hurt you!" She says looking mad. I start feeling the need to take bigger breathes and I form a hoarse cough. I felt as though the air from my lungs were draining out "Jamie, calm down" Avery says trying to cool down enough to help me but I felt my lungs tighten with every lost breathe. But I couldn't shake Harry from my mind. Harry beat up Alex for hurting me, now it was vise virsa and I think I deserve a couple swings. "Can you bring me back? Tell Niall I said thanks but I wanna be in a familiar surrounding" I say trying to control my breathing. "Sure,sure,come on" she says helping me stand up "just go in my car and I'll meet you there" she instructs and I do so.
As I sat down in the car it felt way hot. I didn't know how I would face Harry because right now I'm trembling that he will hurt me again. I don't know what I would do, I'd probably just hang around Anne or lie to Harry and say I have plans when he wants to do something so that I don't have to risk another crazy outburst. Everything just happened too fast. I want my Harry, I always will but that doesn't stop me from being scared he will hurt me. After waiting for a little while I was about to get out and ask what's taking her so long when I heard a door slam shut and cowered down. I saw Harry walk past the car. His head was turning in my direction and I ducked down to avoid him seeing me. He must've missed me and so he kept walking to the door. I was straining my ears to see what he's planning to say. It's been a few hours that I was here so I guess he went home and found I wasn't there. Seeing him made me feel violated. He's touched me before but in a playful way. He's had intentions when he touched me last and I felt dirty. But next was when he hurt my shoulder. Alex hurt my other shoulder. But Harry was nothing like Alex. No matter what he's not.
"Where's Jamie?" I heard Harry ask in a semi raised voice. "Don't worry about it Harry" I heard Avery say. I peeked up and saw Harry growing tense with his hands at his sides balking up. Avery stood there with her arms crossed. She must've been coming when Harry got here. "Avery, I'm not gonna ask again. Where is she?" He warns and Avery steps up a bit to get into his face "it's no where of your concern" she snaps showing no fear. "God dammit Avery! Just tell me where the fuck she is! I come home to see she's not there! I swear to god! Tell me where she is or I will scour every place in this damn city to find her!" He threatens and half of me was frightened. "Go ahead! You won't find her!" Avery says. I get nervous when she takes a quick glance at her car and sees me watching. But what scares me was when Harry's eyes followed and our eyes locked I felt my heart drop. He takes a quick glance at Avery and starts for the car. I quickly lock all the doors with the tiny button on my door. When Harry got to the door, he immediately tried opening it. "Jamie come out" he ordered with a calm voice. One that I would obey if I wasn't so scared on the inside. "She doesn't have to" Avery objects as she appears from Harry's side. "Stay out of this Avery" he says growing annoyed. I'm glad she is. She's protecting her friend while he's too cought up in trying to get me out the car to see how scared I am. "Jamie, open up!" I shake my head no furiously. "Just leave Harry!" Avery yells "I'm not leaving without her!" He yells back. I bury my head in my knees to try and block out everything but it doesn't work. "look! Your scaring her! Just leave Harry!" Avery yells. "I'm not going anywhere without her." He says and I feel ready to give up. He's not leaving without me. Harry's stubborn enough to go with that threat. I unlock the car door and slowly step out. "Finally" Harry says sounding relieved. He holds out his arms like he's going to hug me but I step back "don't touch me." I spit. I walk past him and sit in the back seat so he can't touch me in the passenger. I keep my head down when I hear Harry get in the car and close the door. I feel the car pull out the driveway and I get nervous. I slept in the guest bedroom once, it was comfortable. I don't think I'll be able to sleep so close to Harry without thinking he'll touch me.
"You know, I'm glad that you were at Nialls and not somewhere else" Harry said looking in the review mirror. Was that suppose to make me feel better? I shrug in response and look out the window. "I'm not sure why your mad at me or why Niall and Avery are too." He mentions and I look up confused. What does he mean he doesn't remember? "I remember watching the movie. Then finding myself parked in the woods. I fell asleep and I'm not sure what I'm missing here" I roll my eyes. I wanna yell at him and tell him what he's done wrong! But I'll wait til were outside the car to do that.
We get to Harry's house and I jump out the car as soon as it stops. I hastily start for the door when I hear Harry trying to catch up behind me. "Wait!" He says and I turn around looking pissed. "What?" I snap. "Can you please tell me what I did?" He pleads looking confused. I roll my eyes and open the door. I walk off into the living room and sit on the couch Harry's drink is still there. God I hate whatever made him act out. "Jamie, please" he begs and I don't look at him. But after a moment something catches my nose. I smell something funny. I look around and smell it coming from the cup. I take the cup in my hand and waft a smell. It smells like..alcohol? No, he wasn't. Please tell me he wasn't. "Harry, why does this smell like alcohol? Now that I think of it, why have you been smelling like alcohol?" I ask while standing up. Harry looks like he's coming up with an answer and it hits me like a rock. "You were drunk! That's why you don't remember!" I yelled. "I have a perfectly good explanation" he says while holding his hands out. What hurts is he's not denying it. "Let me hear it? Because drunk Harry is the reason I don't want sober Harry to touch me. You'll love this story" I say sarcastically. "I have been thinking a lot about your parents visit. It's been killing me. How they don't want you with me. I keep thing you'll leave me. It's stressing me out so I would drink a few times to relieve and I must've had too much while we were watching the movie" he explains. "Well that's not enough. Because now" I feel the lump in my throat grow and the tears of my eyes to escape. "I'm terrified of you!" I yell and he looks hurt. Like he's been hit with a boulder. Now he knows how I feel. I hold back my tears because I don't have the energy to cry another tear. "No,no your not." He begs while towering over me and taking both my hands in his. I couldn't get myself to take my hands out of his but I kept my mad face. "yeah, you hurt me! Harry, you started feeling me up during the movie. And when I said no.." I looked down and closed my eyes. I shake my head "just look at my shoulder" I say nudging my head to which one. He cautiously does and pulls my shirt covering my shoulder down. His eyes meet the darkened mark. It's in the shape of a hand. His hand. He reaches out and confirms that it's his hand. Quickly he pulls me to his chest, hugging me and holding me tightly. "I'm a monster. I'm just like Alex." He says with his voice cracking. I shake my head furiously "no,no your not." I deny. "Alex wouldn't care that he did it." More like he didn't care. I take a deep breathe hearing him say it himself. I can hear him silently not trying to cry. I don't want him to cry. He's my rock and I'd break if I saw him cry. Harry looks at me with pink eyes that match mine. "Are you g-gonna leave me?" He says and seeing Harry likes this reminds me of a child. A child who's so sad and is begging for someone not to go with tears as words. It broke my heart. "No, please don't drink again" I beg and he smiles and hugs me tight. "I won't, I promise. It's all getting thrown out tonight" he promises and I smile and nod "thank you" he slowly leans down and kisses me. It was a sweet short kiss. We parted and he looks me in the eyes "I love you, more then anything" he says truthfully. "I love you too" I respond happily. I'm still mad but god I missed him.
