Too Shy To Tell You (Cedric Diggory x Reader)

This Was A Mistake

Cedric's P.O.V.

              Cindy's lips were soft against mine. I could barely make out the grin on her features. I smiled into another kiss. She wrapped her arms around me, pulling me closer. I let all of my weight fall onto one forearm as I towered above her. She giggled into another kiss, pressing her lips firmly against mine. We hadn't been dating for that long, but we were practically inseparable. I looked down at her, tucking a few stray hairs behind her ear.
              My father was good friends with the Chang family, seeing that they were half-bloods like us. Not that blood status mattered. He had insisted that they stay with us over the Holidays. It felt like a set-up. It felt like our parents were playing match maker. But it had worked. I had asked Cindy out on our first date, 2 days after I had met her. I was happy with her. Unbelievably happy, but something felt off. I just couldn't place my finger on it.
              A hand slipped into my hair, pulling me down farther. I obliged as I kissed my raven haired girlfriend. She was so sweet. Her grades were flawless and she was always thinking of others. I didn't know how I managed to get so lucky. But I still couldn't shake the sinking feeling that we weren't supposed to be together. I pushed the thought away, focusing all of my attention on Cindy. She smiled.
             My hand trailed down her waist as the darkness sheltered us. I kissed her harder, but she pulled back. I cast her a confused look. "I feel like we're being watched," she whispered into my ear. I shook my head. There was no one down hear but us. Class wouldn't be starting for another 20 minutes. We were completely alone.
              "That's nonsense," I murmured back. "No one's down here but us. The bell doesn't ring for another 20 minutes, everyone else is at breakfast." She scanned the hallways once more, before nodding. She stood on her tiptoes and kissed me again. I fell into a trance, savoring every moment with my girlfriend, before my head shot up.
              I felt someone else's presence. It felt familiar, but once again I couldn't place it. Was someone else down here? No one came to class that early, did they? I shook my head, I was just being paranoid. There couldn't be anybody down here this early.
Before I could think on it any longer, the sound of footsteps echoed through the corridors. I froze. (Y/N) stepped around the corner, her head held high. Her normal self confidence swarmed around her as she walked. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. As she stepped closer, I noticed several dark bruises lining her face. They weren't hidden out of site. Instead they seemed to stand out even more than the ones, I knew covered her arms. I gasped. My anger seethed. How could this have happened? Why didn't she tell me? Then I remembered. All the memories came flooding back. All of them. How could I forget?
              The night in the astronomy tower. The tears streaming down her cheeks. Me holding her in my arms, whispering to her as she tried to calm herself. The last memory hit me harder than any of them. Her lips on mine. The explosions of fireworks inside my head. And after all that I had run away. I was a coward. I studied her face as she passed. Behind the hard scowl present on her features, I saw hurt. I saw pain. My heart broke. I had caused that pain.
Cindy sneered at (Y/N) as she passed. Cindy pulled me down into another kiss. I went willingly not wanting her to know what (Y/N) and I had. Had. Guilt washed over me as I thought about all the things I had done to hurt her. This was all my fault.
              I pulled away from Cindy, steadying myself against the wall. The first time I had talked to (Y/N) I had her promise me that no matter what happened we would always be friends. And I had failed her. When she had kissed me, I didn't know what to do. I had loved the feeling of her lips on mine. Now that it was all coming back, Cindy meant nothing to me. I was too scared to think of (Y/N) as more than just a friend. But seeing her now, all the fear dissipated. (Y/N) needed me. She trusted me. And I stabbed her in the back, forgetting her completely. God, what was wrong with me?
              The bruises on her face was evidence of the hell she had gone through over the Holidays. She lived in such a broken home and she was completely alone through all of it. I was the only one who knew her father beat her. And I hadn't even been able to help her. I wasn't there when she needed me most.
              "I'm sorry, Cindy. This was a mistake. I rushed into a relationship with you, when my heart belonged to someone else." I couldn't believe I was saying any of this, but my heart was in (Y/N)'s hands. I couldn't do that to her. It wasn't fair to (Y/N) or to Cindy. I looked away, waiting for Cindy's reaction, but all I got was a snicker.
               "Oh, Cedric! You're so naïve. I never really liked you. I just broke up with my boyfriend a few days before Holiday. You were just a distraction. But I should thank you, it made him awful jealous that I'd moved on so quickly." I staggered backwards. I wasn't hurt, not when I had (Y/N) to worry about, but I was in shock. She blew me a kiss before she walked off. My anger boiled. I sneered at the back of her head, wanting to go after her.
                Then I remembered (Y/N). I'd abandoned her for over a month, and what for? For a girl who never liked me? Out of fear that I'd ruin our friendship? Out of fear that I didn't deserve her? I didn't know, but I messed up. Bad. I had to make this right. She had to forgive me. I needed her. I had to fix this. Now.