Too Shy To Tell You (Cedric Diggory x Reader)

Too Shy To Tell You

               You made your way down the hallway between the bustling compartments, looking for Cedric. You promised to meet on the train. Out of sight. Naturally. You were proud to be Cedric's girlfriend. It made you happier than anything else in the world, to know that you had his love. All of it. But you weren't ready to make it public. You couldn't. God only knows what your father would do if he found out. You could never be too careful.
               You wandered down through the narrow corridors, the compartments on either side beginning to empty. You exhaled. There was no one around to snitch. The train lurched, suddenly, throwing you forward. You gasped, bracing yourself for the impact. But it never came. Instead you landed in safely in someone's arms. The person chuckled. "When I said I'd meet you on the train, this isn't exactly what I had in mind. But I suppose it will do." Cedric pulled you up, kissing you lightly on the forehead. You grinned, shyly.
               He grabbed you hand and began pulling you towards the back of the engine. You smiled as he dragged you into an empty compartment. He reached above him, shuffling things around in the overhead. You looked at him, confused. What was he doing? He pulled himself up, so that he was standing on the seat. You shook your head. If the train hit anymore bumps he would fall. You bit your lip, nervously. "Cedric. Baby, please be careful. I don't want you to fall. The train could hit another bump and-"
               "Ha! I've got it. It's right here!" He exclaimed, cutting you off.  You rolled your eyes as he jumped off the bench, waving a bouquet of flowers and a gold velvet box in the air. You let out of a sigh of relief. He didn't fall. You crossed the compartment, setting a hand on his chest and kissing his lips softly. He staggered back, but kissed you as he did.
               "I hope you didn't go and buy me gifts, because if I remember correctly, I specifically told you not to buy me anything." Cedric grinned cheekily, kissing you again. Only your lips touching. You pushed him back, scrutinizing his every move with you (E/C) eyes. "What did you do?" you whispered accusingly. He smirked, eyes shinning.
               "I couldn't help myself. You're my weakness, baby girl. I would give you the world if I could. But I wanted to give you something special for the Holiday. I wasn't there for you during Christmas. And I regret that. I can't rewind and change time, but trust me, if I could, I would. So, to make up for it, in the smallest way possible, I bought you a little gift. I know you didn't want me to but it makes me feel better. Please? For me." You shook your head. You didn't want to take the gifts.
               "I wish you hadn't. I really wish you hadn't. You should've saved your money. I don't deserve this," you sighed. You averted your eyes. You knew what he was going to say when you told him, but he wanted you to be honest. "I don't even deserve you."
               Cedric set the gifts down, and wrapped his arms around you. His head was laid carefully upon your shoulder, as he snuggled into the crook of your neck. He mumbled inaudible words, tickling your neck. You shivered. "Mmm. Don't say that, baby. If anyone deserves me, it's you. I wouldn't want anybody but you. Your my girl and I love you. Now. Tell me. Why would you say that about yourself? About me?"
               You sunk into his embrace, leaning back against him. You tilted your head back, letting him snuggle even farther into you. "You wanted me to be honest with you and that's exactly what I'm doing. Do you remember what I told you that night in the astronomy tower. That night I kissed you for the first time." He winced. That was the night he left you.
               "That you hated yourself? That you felt like you were an awful person? (Y/N). We talked about this. You're perfect to me. All of your imperfections are what make you who you are. And I love every single one of them." You gave a slight smile.
                "Do you remember when I told you that I felt like I was an awful friend? When I told you that I felt terrible because I treated you horribly? Ced, I don't know how many times I can drill it into your brain. I'm treat you horrendously. All I want is to let go completely. I wish I could let the entire world know how I feel about you. But I can't. When I see you in public I have to pretend I don't know you. I have to pretend that I hate you. And I hate that. It makes me feel like you deserve so much better. You deserve a girl that can be real with you, both in private and in public. You don't need a girl who's fake."
               He sighed, nibbling on your ear gently. You swatted him away. He laughed lightly, before responding. "My sweet girl. I love you. So much. More than I'll ever be able to tell you. And I don't know how many times I have to drill it into your head. I want you. And only you. I get that you want to let other people know about our feelings for each other, I do too, but right now that's not possible. I want to keep you safe, but I don't want to lose you. We need to keep this to ourselves for now. Maybe one day, we'll be able to let the walls down. I hate that we have to pretend but it's for the best. As long as we love each other and we know it then that's all that matters. You're not fake. You're just doing what's best for us. Your safety is my number one priority. It's okay. We're okay." You smiled. He handed you the box and the flowers. They were bright yellow sunflowers. You inhaled the sweet scent. You carefully set them down and popped open the box. Inside was a necklace that had 2 hearts intertwined. One was an emerald green and the other was a golden yellow. Slytherin and Hufflepuff. You smiled, kissing him.
               "Thank you, baby. Really. This is the most beautiful gift. And you always know exactly what to say, don't you? I love you. I love you. And I will always love you. No matter what. Please, Ced, promise me you'll love me too. For as long as you possibly can. Please?" Cedric smiled as he turned you around, so that you were facing him. He stared into your eyes.
               "(Y/N), you don't even have to ask me! I love you! I loved you from the day I met you! I love you now! And I'll love you forever. You will be my forever and always for as long as I'm alive. Baby girl. I can't even tell you how much I love you. And I wanted to tell you. Long before now. But I was just...too shy to tell you."