Love Isn't Always Fair (A Ashley Purdy Love Story) *On Hold*

Chapter 42: No More Kids

Izzy’s POV

I woke up and rolled out of the bunk like normal. Ash and the kids were already gone. Warped is halfway over now and this is what I have been waking up to for the past week and a half. I have not been feeling good at all and I am worried about it. I called a doctor today to get me checked out. I am a bit worried if it could be cancer again but it might just be a stomach bug. I got dressed and headed to the tent real quick. I saw Ash playing with the kids. “I am heading to the doctor’s now. Have a great show. I love you.” I said. “I love you too.” He replied kissing me. I kissed my kids’ heads and headed for the rental car. I headed to the hospital. They drew some blood and ran some tests. I waited in the doctor’s office texting Ashley about how the kids were doing. He is about to go on stage and Jon is watching the kids with Juliet. I was now shaking nervously and I just want Ashley here with me. “Excuse me but I am her brother. Thank you.” Matt said walking into the room. I smiled and hugged him tightly. “Why are you here?” I asked. “My little sis needed me.” He said. I hugged him and cried into his chest. “Thank you so much. I love you.” I said. “I love you too Izzy.” He said. My doctor soon came in and sat down. “Well Mrs. Purdy the good news is your cancer is not back.” He said. “And the bad news?” I asked. “Well it seems you had a miscarriage.” He said. My jaw dropped. “You just have cramps from losing the child. The baby wasn’t even fully developed. You were about two and a half weeks along. I am so sorry.” He said. “What caused it?” I asked. “It seems the cancer deteriorated your ovaries and it will be a miracle if you can reproduce again.” He said. I held Matt’s hand tightly. “So what your saying is there was nothing I could do to prevent this. I can’t have any more kids.” I said. He nodded. “It was nice seeming you.” He said. I nodded and he left the room giving us a moment. “I am so sorry Izzy.” Matt said. “It is okay. At least I had Melody and Austin before it was too late.” I said. He nodded and helped me up. We got in the car and he drove us back to the tour grounds. We headed to the main stage. I saw the boys still on stage. I walked up and took Austin from Jon and sat by a sleeping Melody. “Promise me you will never leave your mommy.” I said trying not to cry. Ashley came off stage and hugged me. I shrugged him off and carried the kids back to the bus. I placed the kids down for a nap. “Why did you just ignore me?” Ash asked. “I am sorry. I can’t give you what you want.” I said crying. “What do you mean Isabella? I have everything I can ever want. A beautiful wife and two gorgeous healthy children.” He said. “I can’t get pregnant anymore.” I screamed. “Why?” he asked. “My cancer deteriorated my ovaries and it will be a miracle if I can have a kid again so basically we can’t have any more kids.” I said and began crying. He pulled me in close and rubbed my back. “I am so sorry baby but it doesn’t matter to me if we can’t have kids anymore. I already have two beautiful kids. I just want you to be happy and if you get pregnant then we will take it as it is. We will try to get the baby to term and have another addition to our family.” He said. I nodded and kissed him. He kissed me and carried me to our bed. He laid me down and rubbed my back. I cuddled up to Ashley and he started stroking my hair. “Please sing for me.” I said. He nodded and started singing Sing For Me. I smiled and buried my face into his chest. I soon fell asleep to the sound of his voice. Ashley was right. We have two beautiful kids and if I get pregnant again we will accept it as it is and try to get the baby to term. I wish I could’ve helped the one I just lost.

Ashley’s POV

I feel awful for Iz. I wish I could help her but I can’t magically get her new ovaries. That would not be a smart idea too since that is an impossible surgery too. I kissed her head when she fell asleep and continued to stroke her hair. Andy came in and motioned me to come out to the living area. “What happened?” CC asked worried. “Everyone calm down. I will tell you.” I said. They all sat down and motioned for me to start talking. “So you know how she hasn’t been feeling good and getting a lot of cramps.” I said. They nodded. “Well she went to the doctors and he said her cancer is causing her ovaries to deteriorate. She can’t have kids anymore and if she does then it is a miracle. I think I might just tell her to get an Oophorectomy. I don’t want her to have to suffer. If she has a miscarriage, I don’t think she can handle it.” I said. “She did though. She had one.” Matt said. “What?” I said in disbelief. “She was two weeks along and had a miscarriage.” Matt said. I feel horrible. “I thought she told you.” He said. I shook my head no. I feel horrible. I walked back to Iz and found her crying. I held her tightly. “It will be okay, I know you had a miscarriage. Don’t worry baby.” I said. She smiled a little and kissed me. “We can try for another baby again if you would like in a couple months.” I said. “Can we?” she asked. I nodded and kissed her. She smiled and kissed me back. “Wanna go see New Years Day?” I asked. She nodded. We got up and she got dressed. I heard the kids fussing and picked them up. Iz came walking out. “Ready?” I asked. She nodded. “Mumma.” Austin said reaching for Iz. I handed him to her and we walked to the Domo stage. Ashley smiled at us and motioned for us to come on side stage. We walked side stage and Ashley hugged her tightly. “Ready to watch an awesome show?” she asked. “Yes, thanks for letting us come up.” Iz said. “Anything for my best friend.” She said. They ran out and I watched Iz dance along with the song and have fun. I kissed her cheek and danced with baby Melody. I saw Iz recording us and I smiled. Melody soon fell asleep in my arms while I was dancing with her. I chuckled and kissed her head. Samm brought Austin onstage for Death of the Party. I smiled and Austin looked like he was having a blast. I am so glad Izzy is smiling and having fun. I do hope we can have a third kid but I am so happy and content with my two beautiful babies. When their set was over we said goodnight and headed back to the bus for bus call. I am so happy I have my family with me on tour.